The intention of love.

I think, maybe the greatest tragedy, is that we don’t compliment the people we love nearly enough. And yet, we compliment people we admire, strangers,. Because they’re new and we pay attention to new. We pay attention to celebrities and megastars, because we aspire to them.

But the people who’ve always been there, who are loving, who have supported us every step of the way, or at least most. They get the most ungrateful return for birthing us into the world. They create us, yet they get the most stick. The people who stand by us and are there every step of the way, they get ignored, or worse we disguard them, because they’re there, simply in the background perhaps. Because these loving, caring, patient people, are in high supply, we value them less.

Human beings are wierd, they value what is rare, because some thousands of years ago what was rare was valuable for survival. Food wasn’t available in the fridge so they had to hunt and risk their lives faced with wierd looking scaly predators with big teeth. Then Gold became an important tool to measure payment to who had something of value instead of seashells.

And then somewhere along the way, having a crown watch or a red car became a signaling good to express that we have a surplus of material and we can afford to splurge on luxury, or unessential to survival. When we have everything covered financially, we can focus on the superficial aspect of things. Which is why, women tend to show superficiality as a marker of wealth (a lot of the time). Its a signaling state of their inherant value, or that society places on beauty. So they invest in signaling brands, signaling activities, signaling surgeries to show the level of worth they believe they are. And they become ‘rare’ or at least they act like they do, because they are in high demand due to the desirability factor.

But, back to what matters. The low demand, high supply in those we love.

It’s not because we don’t need someone, or that we don’t depend on, or require someone to do something for us, that they have no value. It’s simply that we can’t see that value because they’re not proposing the value proposition that we’re searching for.

So, when we have a parent who doesn’t necessarily meet our requirements for what is interesting or we meet a young woman who’s pretty, exciting and engaging and on our level; the natural response is to disguard them, or to ignore what they’re saying, or to be disrespectful in some way, or to belittle whatever value they bring to the table. This couldn’t be further from the right way to be.

The thing I like about Italian families, or Chinese families, is that multiple generations live together, supporting each other within the household. Obviously, in our western world, everything is disconnected, we become bachelors, live in houses on our own, and attract women who use all forms of signalling to show they have worth.

In my own way, I propose that everyday, instead of finding something that someone can be of value to us for, we find ways we can be of value to them. Paying back, being of service and being uplifting and supporting to those around us. Even if they’re not ‘seemingly’ making our lives better.

The thing is, I realized when my dad passed, that it’s not because someone is present that they don’t have value. And its not because someone’s not proposing something we value, they that don’t have value. What I like is subjective proportional to my standards and expectances of life. What someone else has to propose is proportionel to them. In every expression there is contribution, and everyone has a different expression to contribute. Which we’re all, too often, busy trying to disguard because it doesn’t fit the shopping list we want and aspire to.

Maybe, take a moment to value that we’re not all the same. That we all have different abilities, and we’re not all Leonardo Davinci great in everything we do. But we are great, in the intentions we put forth.

In my fathers last days, I realized that its not the perfect expression I wanted from him so much that I miss. It’s his presence, its his warmth, its his reaching out, its the exchange. It’s the little messages to see if I’m okay, and to checkup on how I’m doing. It’s the intentions to do the little things which make us ‘feel’ supported, which make us ‘feel’ valued. Even if the way its done is not perfect.

And these little intentions, even if they’re not expressed in the perfect way we want, make us feel the perfect way we want to feel.

The way our loved ones make us feel, is deeper than our mental standards, anything that someones wordly expression can bring forth.

In order of importance, our words and the way they’re used, count for 7% . While our tonality counts for 38% and our phyiscal expression counts for 55%. The words we use are by consequence of little value. It’s important to use the right words, but how those words are said, and with what intent matters much much more.

So, its worth noting the value of a relatives intangible and sometimes invisible intentions which influence the way they make you feel. The magic is under the surface, in what they bring out of you, and how special they make you feel.

Don’t lose any more time bikering about the details. Embrace the time you have left, focussing on whats important. The intention.

All the best,

Cherokee Goldberg

11/02/202406/09/2025

18 useful points (and a tiny smiley face)

New year, same me, different perspective, new goals.

Before reading anything:

Feel free to interpret this however it will serve you. I’m not a dictator. I don’t impose what I write as a cookie-cutter solution for everyone. What you perceive in this may resonate, it may not. Read between the lines. Take things with a pinch of salt. And if you like something, leave a comment or a thumbs up so I know that I did something to good for someone.

I’ve decided to start documenting my journey, and build openly from 0€ to 1M, so that I can provide value for anyone who is struggling to make money and create actual value online. As well as keep trace of my journey. It’s also good because it give me a form of accountability.

So far I’ve found these points to be of use to me.

Driving factor

This being said, there are many ways to make money online, though it is brought often to my attention through the people I encounter, and through my reading, that attempting anything solely for money just does not work. In fact, whenever money is the driving factor, I most always obsessively burn myself out because nothing else matters. And ‘else’ does matter.

I confirm this through my own experience; over and over I’ve encountered failure after failure. Not because I’m not hard working, but because after a while, I lose interest, I lose the drive, and my focus fizzles out. I move on to the next, and lose interest all together in anything related to the project. Why? Because money isn’t fulfilling, it’s rewarding, and reward doesn’t fill you up, the fulfillment you get during your process does. And I believe it’s Steve Jobs who said that ‘the only way to do great work, is to Love what you do.’

Some people can do things solely for money, though I’ve found that money can never be a decision factor for me. I like money, I enjoy using money, and I enjoy all the things I can do with money. Though, at the end of the day, it is a tool, something to help you (be, do, achieve, render service, have… etc). Money doesn’t fulfill you, especially during the process of acquiring it. At least it doesn’t for me.

I’ve found that, if money is at the top of my decision pyramid, all of my core values aren’t as important as money and I become corrupted (corps-rupture = cut off from the intelligence of my body) and end up going down silly paths. In fact, without values, one becomes a wh*re for money (excuse my French) and all of our important values get thrown out of the window. Hence why we live in a society where most of our social media is based on hype and click bait.

Define Values

So, it becomes increasingly important that one define their values first and foremost and then strive with the framework of those values as invisible guiding forces. If we stray away from our values, we most often find ourselves doing anything, and anything doesn’t necessarily allow us dignity, or a constructive lifestyle.

I’m a big believer that the process and standards we impose on ourself is what we impose on others. So, if we stress ourselves out and whip ourself into action; guess what, we’ll most likely do that to others. So, self-love becomes quite important too in the achievement of one’s financial success.

And come to think of it, I can’t allow myself to start this journey with you by saying — as I said earlier on — I’m going from 0 to 1M. Sure, that’s a nice vision to have. But it doesn’t drive my actions, and it can’t drive my actions. It does give me an indicator of scale, of importance, of the value of my work, and impact I have on helping others. This is what I can see within the 1M reference.

Process

The larger the number, the more pressure I put on my creative process. But, we human-beings are not coal, we don’t transform into diamonds. I’m all for pressure and steel forges steel and all that but, when it comes to quality, I like the approach of a local butcher my father introduced me to many years ago. Let’s call him Mr.D.

Mr.D was a butcher and farmer who believed that the quality of the meat he sold to his clients was directly affected by the quality of the lives his animals lead. A stressed cow produces stressed meat. An unstressed cow however would produce a tender meat. So Mr.D decided to let his cattle roam free the entirety of their lives, right up to the very last second where he’d drive one up to the back of the shop only a few hours before displaying it to customers.

What I take from this, I apply to my creative process. The quality of the input of information I consume, is defined by the intention and quality of my state and mental process, and the result is that a quality input, and a quality process produce a highly valuable output of information/solution/production that has served me well. And this, I intend to continue doing.

What the 1M reference doesn’t take into account is personal fulfillment, enjoyment, the quality of the journey, the value of my work, attention to detail, how much effort will go into providing something that people want. The personal side of the venture. The joy I take in discovering a new fact, or ideate a new solution.

When people lose interest and / or fulfillment on a job, they move on. This is why, being aligned with what we enjoy is of utmost importance. Which brings me to my last year.

Understand your nature.

Since September 2022, I decided to go back to school to become a Full stack developer. And since this period, I have spent the majority of my time reading, testing, applying code. While it does have upside, and it can be helpful to produce solutions. I also saw a lot of downside to learning code.

I saw my mental clarity become scattered, my handwriting started to slant backwards, my ideation flow became ebbed and because I’m an auditive primary (vakog) less words = less expression, my thought process became less fluid, and I became less and less clear about how I am feeling, what my intuition is telling me, as well as losing interest in being in front of a computer screen at all.

And for a writer, or at least a creative dreamy ideator like me, this means feeling dead. Sure, I could write code, implement control structures, automate outcomes and add Api’s to things. But at what cost?! Because, my sole purpose to learn code was to get a job that could provide a stable income, I was doing it for money. Not necessarily because I ‘loved it’.

Straying from your nature will produce anti-productive outcomes

Another thing I’ve observed with ‘doing something we don’t like’ is that when our daily process is spent doing something we don’t enjoy for the purpose of money, we end up seeking forms of pleasure and instant gratification that we wouldn’t normally have to if we were fulfilled by a work well-done. I believe the quote is to ‘live a life we don’t want to escape from’.

We can’t live a life we don’t want to escape from, if we spend the majority of our day focused or thinking about something which isn’t what we truly want. And so, the inevitable solution is to find what we love to do.

Connect the dots.

In order to succeed, I’ve found that we must connect the dots looking back and define a theme. My theme is [Ideation, writing, speaking, creativity] verbal expression/ communication. If I disconnect from that, I will feel a lack of enlightenment. I must read every day in order to write every day, and I must write in order to have clarity of mind. And in order to speak well, I must have clarity of mind and references of ideation, which come from reading and writing.

This is the paradigm I must live in. If I don’t apply it, it becomes my prison. If I do apply it, it becomes my liberation. But either way, it seems to be the only path which I can travel which fills my soul, and gives me the clarity and energy to do anything and everything else.

Without food and words, life isn’t really worth living. Love comes and goes apparently, but food and words must be daily.

Deliver Value to others

I’ve found also that in order to succeed and do well in business, one has to wrap the entire business around two points. The first is to make that business customer centric. The second is to be in love with the process of delivering results to that specific customer. And I believe that if we have both ingredients, it hightens the probabilities of achieving a successful business.

Use contrast to understand yourself and see life more clearly.

Over the last few years, I decided to go experience as much contrast, difficulty, and even pain and embarrassment as possible. (Bear with me, there is a method to my madness). In order to create the fuel which would propel me towards achieving the pleasure I wanted.

When I left high-school (2012, a good number of years ago now..), I observed that I was ambitious, but I had no drive, no motivation to make money. I was good at everything else in life, but money was not my strong suit. And I needed money to afford living a lifestyle that would attract the woman I’d want to be with. So, I devised of a plan to suffer and create references that I’d never want to ever experience again, in order to fuel me towards the desired outcome I dreamed of having. Drive is defined by an axis of Pain and Pleasure.

Now, enough about me already.. How do I intend to succeed?

Discover your zone of Genius / Strength

When I was younger, I noticed that I could do really well in one specific area; sports. I hated school, mostly because I rejected all authority (as an aftermath of rejecting the example my father lead), but I had a lot of energy to apply. So, I became the football captain and striker, I worked obsessively to run faster, and I’d train over and over until I could put the ball where I wanted. And so on… Okay, nothing special yet.. Then, I started to notice that because I was doing well on the team, I started to do well with the guys on the team. And because I did well with the guys on the team, this transfered to my social too, so I started to do a lot better with women because I could lead men. (I think lead is a strong word for a kid who could put a ball in a net, influence might be more appropriate).

Doing well, and focusing on my strong suit, allowed me to develop confidence. This confidence allowed me to become more popular. And that popularity, allowed me to shine who I was. Now, I all of that was based on physical prowess and the fact I peaked in high-school and seemed to have some sort of a clue of how the world worked. I didn’t, I simply understood how to work social situations to my advantage, like most students in school… Doing what was trendy, standing out, and being loud somehow, but also a little vulnerable. but I digress..

Focusing on my strong suit, allowed me to Shine. And in my ability to shine, I became attractive, outgoing and popular. So, that is a success for a student, who wants to be liked by his peers.

Focussing on my strong suit / what comes naturally to me, and going all in on what only I can do, in addition to finding a pain point to provide a solution only I can provide due to my strong suit, will allow me to produce a high output of value overtime, without too much fatigue. Because at the end of the day, its all about consistency and compounding of value.

Be the Master your own narrative. Be selective of who puts what in your mind. Define your own future.

Which brings me to determining, What empowers you the most in the world? The information related to solving your present/current pain point. The one which will enable you to 10x yourself. The insight that will help you define the next clear step and direction you need to take.

As human beings, we are interested and curious about the future, but we’re not able to determine it clearly. We love predictions and astrology and even the doomsday theories we imbibe when we listen to .. any random youtuber today, about “how the end of the financial market..” or how “AI will put an end to.. and you’ll get left behind…”. The point is, we focus on these ‘alert’ messages, because we want information about how to go towards the future without encountering death. We need to prevent death.

Though, when we’re preventing death, we’ve already lost the game.

Hone the present day

You see, the most important thing to note is that, if someone else is telling you how the future is, they are dictating not only the future you will go towards, but they are robbing you of the power to take action in the present. Without a compelling future to go towards, we are robbed of the gift within the present moment: the possibility to take inspired action to build towards that future.

So, it’s my understanding, that if we reject the future, we will also reject our present, which prevents us from doing anything of value.

In contrast, I’ve understood through my own experience, that we must START where we are. When you choose the state you are currently in, and accept it. You can start working towards where you want to go with the thing you want to evolve.

Start where you are mentally, find where you are on your internal path.
Start where you are physically, what weights can you lift and grow your muscle with here, not the heaviest you can lift, but what can your muscle comfortably support.
Start with where you are emotionally, what are you feeling right here and don’t repress it.
Start where you are financially, what do you have and how can you BEST use those finances for the best impact Right now? Instead of wanting more to do what you can already best start.
Start out where you are health-wise
Start out where you are relationship-wise.
Start-out where you are business wise, start with what you’ve got and do the best you can.
Start out where you are spiritually.
Start out where you are habit-wise.

When we can accept where we are, first and foremost, we can decide to empower what we have and appreciate what we have. When we reject where we are, what we have, we can’t use it to our advantage, we can’t build on it, we can’t grow it. We must start from where we are. If you can start from where you are, you have control. You don’t have control or power over something that is out of your reach.

Community

I’ve gone at it alone, a lot. Simply because I needed to make a lot of mistakes, and test a lot of things quickly. Though, once those things are over, one tends to feel somewhat isolated. And success isn’t supported by isolation, its supported by networking. We succeed as part of a community we participate in. Even if its simply being seen, witnessing someone elses presence can be a huge determiner of how well you perform. Being around other entrepreneurs and solopreneurs is a massive game-changer, and saves you a tremendous amount of time. Not to mention that it keeps you accountable to live up to your word.

Join a club, have a team

When, I was younger, I played soccer on the local team. I didn’t think much of it back then. All I knew was that I practiced a lot, and put in a lot of personal hours on the side. Though, with retrospect, being a part of a whole like a soccer team is valuable. It gives you a standard to perform at. On your own, you are at the mercy of even the wind blowing in a direction. When you’re surrounded by a team, you are within a structure which imposes a certain form of conduct, and expects you to live up to the same goals. So it’s important to be around other people, even if you don’t necessarily have the same values, who have a a similar goal to you. You’ll become alies in mutual success.

Having a clear and meaningful vision.

Lack of vision is probably the most painful state. Because nothing is clear and everything is anarchy. In order to make sense of anarchy, one must have a point to aim for, otherwise one gets swayed and caught within the disorder of what is passing at that moment.

Having a clear vision is also motivational. It helps give meaning to the actions and process we enact while going towards it. If the outcome is a meaningful vision, then the journey towards that vision will be all the better. Taking action, simply because it fulfills the steps layed out to achieve an outcome which has no meaning to us is worthless. And what is more, detached from our internal journey we travel while we work. So a meaningful vision is fulfilling as much as it is useful.

Enjoy the journey.

For the past 10 years, I’ve killed myself to produce outcomes, reach achievements and so on. But.. Living in a future which would never come. This is a draining way to live life. And what’s more, we miss out on the present life we have, while waiting for a better situation which could potentially never arrive. That, in my view is a waste, and I suppose I could say its ungrateful to God for the present circumstances given to us. If we truly appreciate what we have, then we also appreciate our present moment and time enough to optimize how we experience them and what we do with them. Living for the future is ungrateful of the present, and also if that future is taken away, your sense of meaning goes too.

Another thing; when you enjoy the journey, you are in joy. And when you enjoy yourself, it makes your experience worth living. Being in stress all the time wrecks havoc in your health, or at least your health takes a toll. Having faith in the journey and enjoying what is in front of us is beneficial.

Choose appreciation and Gratitude over impossible standards and complaints.

When we appreciate what we have, just like in trading when an asset appreciates, we grow what we have. Or at least we grow the reference of what we have within our internal kingdom; the mind. Being grateful for what we experience, for what we have, and for those around us, grows the amount of references/seeds we have within.

Embrace what is in front of you.

For the longest time, I rejected what was in front of me. The people, the environment, pretty much everything which wasn’t what I didn’t want. And so, I disempowered myself as a result of rejecting what was around me. Everything around us can be considered a block to build with, and if we’re so stubborn as to believe that the grass is greener somewhere else, then you never water your own circumstances. Its with gratitude that we grow our current circumstance, and we’re able to make use of everything that is around us.

Ex: I need to go to silicon valley in order to be around the best in the world. But, if I actually look around, there are startup incubators around where I am. There are successful people here too. There are opportunties here, and great people to network with. And whats more, if I don’t succeed here, why do I expect to succeed there? I’m simply saying I need a better looking building and people in order to be able to achieve what I can achieve here anyway if I put my limitations and blockages to bed.

I think its Walter Wattles, in The Science of being Great, who said that: one must do a great job where one is, and only with a certain frame of mind can one grow out of ones circumstance.. That one will find ones personal mediocrity in every circumstance, until one becomes great where he already is. — I hope I’m correct, although I’m quoting from memory, I read the book a long while ago…

Breathe.

Rome wasn’t built in a day. There’s no point getting yourself into a heart-attack by trying to have over night success, because everyone else is applying this AI tactic… Your boat won’t leave without you. Or as is said in Conversations with God, you can’t fail. You may take a detour, but you will get there at some point. Just don’t give up.

Take a break and breathe from time to time. Contemplate everything you have achieved. Witness the beauty around you, or if it is lacking, imagine something beautiful. Turn on some classical music, or a tune that elevates the mood.

Sometimes, doing more work isn’t the solution. Taking a step away to see the picture clearer later on is.

You aren’t subject to VC’s, no one is on your back expecting an elevated return (hopefully). March to the sound of your own drum, and listen to your own rythme. After all, we’re not in school anymore, the only person who takes care of us, is us. And if you don’t respect yourself enough to slow down once in a while, no one else will.

If you don’t have a plan for yourself care, someone will have a plan for you, and that doesn’t look healthy.

🙂

03/02/202005/09/2025

Make the most of your life before you get in the public eye.

Before getting started, I’d recommend listening to the same songs I was listening to while writing this:

“Acceptance” – Johann Eder
“Little Diamond” – Mylo Rivers

For a long while, I’ve only solely wanted to be famous and rich and known, so that people would love me and people would respect me because I was in a high position.

Caught up in facebook ads with annoying clic bait videos which want us to subscribe. Fame filled with stressed out vindicative burnt out stars who are trapped in a merry-go-round of concerts and never get to leave their houses for fear something will happen.

They’ve succeeded, and then found peace only to find that their success takes it away.

Far from the world of social media where everyone is glamorous and never have a day off from their fake vacations and their surgically enhanced lives. Where everyone has decided to be famous and known, I’ve been fortunate enough to have seen it coming. Don’t get me wrong, in desperate times, before working on myself, the idea that wealth would come with being known had pushed me to try a few “I know it all attitude“ type videos.

The idea that we have to continuously be the perfect image of what society awaits of us, is a prison unto its self.

Only, right now in my life I’m in a very different place. I’m enjoying my life, I feel blessed, I feel happy, I am safe, I have no obligations, I can do what ever I want and I am genuinely fine with what I cannot do. This entirely frees me up to enjoy my life as it is.
I am free…

I have a Macbook pro, and I recently found my old toshiba c50 and got it repaired. As an observation from using them both. I am glad I have the power and stability of my mac. Though, I’m relived by the lack of importance my old Toshiba laptop has. Like mucking around while we were children, we weren’t focused on how we were dressed or how we looked. We were pulled towards what our curiosity gravitated towards.

This is something I had lost for a long while. The freedom to be carefree without living in the fear of damaging something expensive, or more importantly not damaging my “precious” macbook pro which could stop working because of a vibration or some shock while putting my backpack down maybe a tad too fast.

My general sentiment is that of not being bothered by the value of something or having it damaged or always being on alert in case we do… This is something I enjoy. Not having to live up to “social standards” of being presentable or having to look picture perfect or any other of the things we’re supposed to do to be accepted and looked up-to in society .

Though, this post doesn’t focus only on computers, it focuses on life and more specifically that aspect before we have to uphold an appearance. I’m currently enjoying discovering myself again, taking my time to enjoy all the little things which seem to become unimportant in the grand scheme of life in the public eye once money and politics and business get in the way.

I recently purchased a 2008 Mac Pro 3.1, and before I compare it to being like an old mustang that I get to build in my garage, I’d like to talk about the memories previous years granted me.

I was in secondary school at that point and my neighbor and his older brother were into computers. I only knew how to turn it on and play Tomb Rader 3 from a cd. While I liked jumping from obstacle to obstacle and trying not to end the game by falling into pixelated piraña infested waters. My neighbors seemed to have different games and knew more about computers than I.

I devoted most of my time observing, trying to figure out what it was they knew, how they had come to have all these games and how come he was able to enter on to my computer without my password?!

Even though I had a tough start with computers, I soon caught up. By that time, we played Counter-strike and like little engineers, we’d unmount hard-drives, put them in our friends computers and move all the data around, format our drives, and reinstall with the latest OS we had at the time. We’d lug our towers and massive screens around to Lan-parties and stay up all night fragging the hell out of each other on half life.

I remember this vividly because, these were times where I found something I was good at, and I found a competitive purpose. I had my team, my friends and people who I enjoyed being around. I had my tribe!

Back to the mac! I recently purchased an old Mac Pro with the hopes of buying a graphics card which will be accepted under the latest mac OS. Opening up the old tower and seeing the physical graphics card and the hard disk drives brought me back to where I was before getting serious about life.

I’d update and I’d solve problems of how to install an OS on an old device, which one would work, what do I need to get it running. It feels like I’m back in the game! It feels good. None of this integrated macbook pro none-sense where everything is dismantled and soldered in micro-particles all over the device…

Maybe I can get this thing running! Fingers crossed. Its just a man-shed project… Either way…

Today, things are very different. I’ve since stopped playing games back in 2006, devoted my mind to more productive things like reading or writing or simply exercise.
My friends have moved on and they have jobs, and I’m back at my family home.
Since a few years, I’ve decided to take it easy on the career front. I can hear the “hard workers” already throwing a fit.

I’m at home. For a while, I lost the sense of feeling at home. I felt I needed to work harder and harder and push myself to the edge of all my limits in order to thrive. I felt I needed to become “special”, or have some unknown talent that the world needed. Only to find out that I’ve been exhausting myself trying to keep up with the world and the social movement of “Do anything to become famous”.

I write these words, knowing one thing in my heart. I’m sitting here with my black fuzzy cat who’s on the head of my armchair, I have a fuzzy blanket on, ambient music plays in the background, while I type. I feel a profound sense of belonging, I know I’m on the right path, I feel this is right. I’m happy and inside of me is a feeling of utter contentment.

I’m not striving for anything, I don’t need any money to live the “good life” which everyone is after, not right now at least. I enjoy cooking, I have fresh foods delivered from the local farmer, and I’m not stressed by anything external.

I can dream to my hearts content. I’m not worried about social media because I turned it off, and I’m not worried about missing out because I’m not. If anything, I’m exactly where I need to be.

I get to spend time with my family, as well as take time to heal my body after years of wear and tear. I’m inspired, I’m interested and curious. I’m not competing with anyone for once. I’m simply writing for the love of writing and this fills me with joy.

I live for these moments where, under no pressure at all, a heavenly feeling fills me with a bliss like inspiration. Under no obligation do I have to write anything that I’m writing, other than the effortless joy I get to express what I’m feeling.
This, my friends, is success to me. Being able to write how I feel as the inspiration comes up inside of me.

The freedom we have from being where we are, unknown, without any pressures, is utter wealth. My time is mine, I chose to be here. I have everything I need. I’m happy on my own creating and listening to music. I’m not worried about money. I’m not worried about other people. I’m just here, writing these words in sheer contemplation.

I’m able to focus on pure creation and value the process without it being a JOB. The lack of external obligation allows me to dive deep and evolve at my own rhythm without having to do anything, think about anything, or be trapped in anyone else’s intentions.

I can do my inner work while appreciating everything I have. I’m grateful, my life has changed so much. I’ve lost my anger, I’ve dealt with many of my fears, I’ve confronted my deep demons and I get to relax while my body heals.

The next door in life will come soon enough, that I know. A bit like in Mario 64, where we can push against certain doors as much as we want, but until we have defeated all the primary level boss’s we can’t open the door…

Fame will come or it won’t. I’m not bothered by this. I’m more concerned about not living everything I have to appreciate here first. If I’m always focusing on everyone else and how well they’re doing, I won’t get a chance to enjoy my own life and those around me.
I get this chance and I’m thankful for it.

My wonderful black cat purrs near my head, while overlooking my shoulder, looking at my screen. Who knows maybe she can read?

28/12/201905/09/2025

New years resolutions

Is it not better to not make a new year observation? It’s a new decade!

Looking back over the years, we make new years resolutions every year, only to not keep them, or to find ourselves with gym memberships, hyper expensive gym equipment clogging up the front room or a years supply of weight watchers tasteless processed foods coming to your door week after week…

The point is, we don’t need to wait until a specific date to start doing something we know is good for us. Or anything for that matter. Waiting to start something.
And why do we have to wait until a New year to start something New, with our old habits still in place?

Isn’t it better to take our time, achieve the goals we already have and only when we have achieved the one’s we have can we set new ones?
Isn’t it better to take time to contemplate what we have achieved in the past year, and build on that instead of Starting anew? What was wrong with last years resolutions? – Aren’t you going to make pretty much the same this year?

Maybe not. Though, for many of us, the repetition of setting a goal, only to not go through with it until completion is probably worse than the having the ambitious goal in the first place.

Maybe we need to go about mastering the mindsets we already have, and build with our natural inclinations. Observe our essential state, what we respond best to, how long we take to recover from X and Y exercise, how long it takes for us to see a difference with such diet, or how we feel about what we want before setting out to get it.
So far, we’ve seen that it is not the possession of the objects that make us happy,
but in the striving for them. It’s the struggle to achieve such and such which grant us with the blessed results. It’s not the results. Once we have the results, we want more/better/different.

Maybe, we ought to search for ways of consistent change. Workouts that we live throughout our day to day lives. Like walking up flights of steps instead of elevators.
Using a bike to get a pint of milk instead of taking a car. Setting time aside for ourselves to reflect, reassess, resource ourselves, before the day or the next day comes.

Making lists of our negative traits, honestly, and asking for those around us to point out our negative traits in order to work on them more in depth.
Though, not forgetting to make Positive lists of what we are capable of, what we have achieved, and what we are to remind ourselves in our down times.

The idea of having a C.V. isn’t just great for work, its a reminder of what we have achieved academically, or what experience we have. Having the likes of a Modeling book, but for our accomplishments is a great way to keep us aligned with what we can do, while also giving us confidence and clarity that we can achieve it again during our times of self doubt. Worst case scenario, you can create an instagram page -anyone can do this- and take a photo of your achievement each time, and post it. You don’t need to have a fancy following, nor do you need to follow anyone. This is for yourself. In fact, I’d advise to create a private page, where you can simply have an online reminder account of what you have achieved.

Another idea would be to have a timeline. Create a timeline from your birth, or from your conscious years and along side that have a bucket list. With your timeline, observe the big events which you are proud of, what you have achieved, your failures and moments of changing paths etc.. and with your bucket list, you can then strive towards ticking off each entry on the list and consciously placing each element on your timeline.
You can use “Trello” for this which is an easy organising system.

Did you know that Aboriginal tribes people don’t celebrate birthdays, nor do they celebrate the passing of time? They will celebrate a success, an evolution, passing a difficult point in one’s life… in other words, they celebrate what matters.

What do we do? We add another itemised list of things to-do that we think we might need to accomplish in order to be happy. Then we sync our iCal and our Google notifications and spam ourselves with reminders to do more.

Maybe the secret remains in doing less. Coming back to our new years event, maybe we should take time out to contemplate what it is that isn’t working well for us, cut out what is holding us back, redefine what it is that we want, but most importantly take time to admire what we have accomplished this year.

Maybe it’s not all about achieving, but simply living. Do we need to achieve to feel content? In fact, that is what needs to be defined. What makes us feel fulfilled, isn’t necessarily about achievement, but meeting our needs and the needs of those around us with our basket of personal talents.

At this point in life, I want to be less hard on myself. This is about where I am in life. Not about what I want this year. In fact, life is more milestones and checkpoints, with inner confirmations and what feels right to us than it is about to-do lists, achievements, sixpacks and squats…
In fact, at this point I want functionality and efficiency. I’m not searching to be the best, nor am I searching to be better than anyone. Right now, my north star is having optimal health, being physically capable, having good relationships with others, listening to my body, my intuition, and how I feel. Having goals that show on the outside start from the inside. Since last October (2018), I’ve been planting some healthy seeds in my mind, reading interesting uplifting books, taking steps to get back to health, become aware of what I am doing that is affecting me, etc. and I’m taking my time about it.

I’m pretty much undisturbed by others at this point. I’ve cut myself off social media, hardly spend time on facebook (only for practical reasons like selling something, or a contact I don’t have on my phone…), I’ve deleted my instagram account, and I’ve started feeling better. No, actually I’ll correct that; I’ve started feeling great ! I’ve started going out again, I’ve started meeting people, going for bike-rides, setting goals outside…

By all means, clean out, make space for new things to come. Of course.
But, what I am saying is, accept what you have, be happy with it, and use it to get more of what you already have. Rejecting what you have/where you are won’t help you. It’s like shooting yourself in the foot because you don’t like your foot. Then you’ll be limping, might have to amputate your foot, and you’ll have a carbon foot instead which probably isn’t what you want. (Sorry if there are any amputees reading this, I mean no harm!)

This year,
Take a look at what you have done, instead of looking at what you want to do.
Take a look at where you are, compared to where you want to be.
Be grateful for what you have, instead of always wanting more.

Observe more.
Note down what you have accomplished so far, on your way to your North star (its an adventure!)
Define what has been working for you.
Define what isn’t working so far.
Redefine why we want certain things, instead of simply wanting them to please others.
Struggle well – Read Ray Dalio’s “Principles”
Efficient incorporated workouts in our day to day lives
Make a Bucket-list Timeline
Celebrate what matters over unconscious traditions
Have a North star to go towards, but don’t time it, go with the flow of life.
Do what is essential, healthy. Don’t force against the river, you’re not a salmon!
Have a break from social media – you deserve it after all these years of saturation!

It’s time for a change from everything we have been doing.
Time for a different approach. Maybe it is the new year after all… 🙂

22/09/201905/09/2025

What you Need to Know about Social Media (r)

On the one side, being exposed to all things all the time is an amazing source of development, we get to see what we are and by what we are interested.

In other circumstances, we’d have no idea that some things exist. This is a good thing. People also get to exchange and evolve no matter where they are which is helpful.

Discovering many amazing new things, not “feeling” as isolated than as if we had been alone and cut off in a cave the entire time.

It brings great competitivity and progress which comes with competition.

Though on the other, the downsides are felt in part due to the depth at which we are isolated or how “mainstream” we are. And also in part, to one’s degree of confidence or lack there of.

Comparing, which leads us to feeling lesser, unworthy or even unable to live up to “the standard” is a source of pain.

We can never keep up and this turns out to be draining.

No matter how much we share with others, we get nothing in return except confirmation about what we already know. “I’m great”, “I’m powerful”, “I’m rich”, “I’m pretty”… which are vanity criteria based on what we already know.

It also confirms that people who have more financial freedom will be able to show off more, or those who have a standard of beauty which appeals to the masses will be put on a pedestal and valued higher than anyone who is “different” in any way possible.

In a way, its back to high school with the rich kid/poor kid/ Confident kid/Unconfident kid again…

This sense of high school 2.0 is very unproductive for anyone who is observing. Also vain and an empty pursuit due to the fact that it promotes “The popular kids”. It really goes to show the reality of “wanting to fit in”. By wanting to fit in, you naturally aspire to be a product of mass consumption, a product of mass exposure.

Social media also gives the illusion that one is or isn’t necessarily liked based on superficiality.

This is a faulty parameter which cannot give precise and correct results. It bases everything on the Golden Circle but inside out.

Starting with What then how then why. This cannot work; as human beings we function from the inside out, not the outside in.

Why>How>What. Spirit/heart/idea>Method/action>Intention/circumstance.

In terms of effects on our psyche and our time, it is an abomination. Our minds and nervous systems have become overstimulated and over saturated with information that we don’t necessarily need, want or even Should have in the first place.

Over 200 years ago, someones entire lifespan wouldn’t have even half of what we are exposed to in a single day. Imagine what our minds are capable of and what our mental limits are.

Faster, more, better, NOW!

Though, through fomo and needing to know what the “next thing is “social media has exposed us to an attachment to our devices. We needn’t fear governments putting Chips in us to see where we are. We are already here, our information is passed everywhere, all the time, to limits far outside of our reach.

Our minds are saturated, which means are nervous systems are saturated and this is a clear indicator that we need to let go of all outside stimulation, especially devices, screens, and anything which has power.

We are “PUSHING” ourselves to imbibe information which has nothing to do with us. We are exposed to too much information. None which serves us correctly for what is in front of us in actuality.

When traveling in another country, I have found that being confronted to constant New information, my mind is thrilled, though my body has no time to rest as it is constantly adapting to the upcoming change of scenery and people.

The same is valuable for our brains and nervous systems in front of screens. Day in and day out we are exposed to more and more information which never lets us correctly relax and heal our over stimulated sensors. This can be damaging.

The standards around us have risen above what is humanly possible to upkeep. Over consumption has taken part so much that the world and its natural resources are collapsing. The Ice caps Are melting. Our water is filled with plastic. Governments are actually putting nuclear waste into the sea.

Corporations, making mass profit are pushing their agenda onto us based on our social media usage, what we read, what we look at etc. Everything around us has become a product to sell. Everything we see is for sale. Our lives have become studies like labrats for usage and profit.

Our secrets we now expose with the vain hope that we too will become famous. “But for what?”

We are exposed to cultures and trends that have nothing to do with us. We are born in specific parts of the world and for good reason. While growing up in specific places, we have grown to understand and perceive the world around us. The world we see and have action over is what is in front of us, not what is happening half way around the world. This is a disruption in our ways of functioning and takes away our roots, our individuality and unifies everyone with the same styles, trends and exposure which otherwise wouldn’t exist. For example: I used to meet people and observe how they spoke, their linguistic rhythms and their mannerisms. Though everyone is now exposed to the same people. This makes everyone into a clone of someone else and empowers those who have more exposure and who have trend influence.

Everything you say and do, there is proof to keep you “consistent”. Though as human beings, we are changeable, we are evolving all the time, we make mistakes, we grow, we change… If there is proof of a mistake, you never get to move on, you never get to change, nor do you ever get to be free from something that hasn’t existed for maybe 15 or 20 years.