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Responsibility

Here’s one I’ve found to be terribly painful.

There is no way for us to enter God’s kingdom, if we cannot accept responsibility to be in control for the thoughts that we are thinking.

About 12 years ago an event happened to me. The person who ‘acted’ the event onto me left me we an idea of how to describe him, a bad bad man.

I got out of that situation, and grew, and decided to write books and a blog and blablabla…

11 years later, I meet someone who triggers that exact state of emotion I had so much trouble getting over.

Today, I reach a point of culmination where – perhaps because of the full moon – I comprehend what I’ve needed to do to overcome what I’ve been fighting against over and over, vehemently for the last 5 months.

So, here goes:

My subconscious has been persecuting me with terrible terrible guilt ridden descriptions for the last 5 months. And every time it would, I would refuse and reject the idea because quite simply it has nothing to do with me. After all, I aspire to do good, be great and do what’s healthy and loving… all that, right?

And nearly every day, I’d reach a point where I’d have to go through this debilitating concept. No thanks, I don’t accept that, and never will. It has nothing to do with me!

A few days would go by, and again, as if my entire internal army had decided to conspire against me, to take siege over my sense of inner peace. I started to consider perhaps ending it. Like, why on earth would I want to go through this repeatedly… I can’t get on with work, I can’t focus on my gift, I can’t make progress. I just have to suffer and see everyone else making progress while I go through ‘muck’…

And then, today, I decided to take a different approach. Give in.

Today, I decided to just lie down with my thoughts and emotions.

It’s important to note that, when we decide to face something head on, it loses it’s power.

Anyhow…

When I reached the point where I decided to close my eyes, all I saw was the pitch black view and the discomfort of my heart feeling out of sync. (In reality it was me who was out of sync with it!)

So, I did breathing, I’ve been doing breathing lately.

And I contemplated what my heart was feeling, tried to figure out what I couldn’t feel for months ( actually 12 years I’ve been unable to feel this one thing.. and stuck in the mind…).

And then… it hit me. I sat with the discomfort, and the emotions, and decided to go along with the visions and the verbal persecutions and give in to them. So I accepted to be what my mind told me I was.

Then, in that clear instance, I was let into heaven. My heart opened up, and I realized (It seems I keep on learning this lesson…) it is only by accepting what is that I can do something about it. Even if, in this instance, it’s not actually true. My mind thinks it is, so I have to accept that my mind thinks it is, even if I know it’s not true.

When we accept what is, we can do something about it.

What’s more? When we take responsibility for ourselves, God let’s us in the kingdom. Not before, if we believe we have no power, or that we have no agency over ourselves, then guess what, we don’t get to be in heaven during our stay! God doesn’t want terrorists in heaven, so you have to leave your state of terror at the door! (We all terrorise ourselves with our beliefs, and thoughts and so on…)

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When you ‘feel’ low and nothing is working out for you

When we feel low, it’s because we’ve been saturating our focus on things that make us feel like shit. Or, we’ve been focussing on how things aren’t working for us. Or, we’ve been focussing on how we never get what we want.

But the thougts we consume, we also tend to think about. If we decide to eat a chestnut, will there be a carrot or an apple in our stomach to be digested? No. Only a chestnut. So, when we place our attention on things which aren’t fully uplifting and inspiring, these ‘reference points’ become – mediocre- because we have decided for mediocre idea food…

We have to accumulate positive, unplifting, beautiful, joyful, beautiful, references which make us feel – the way we want to feel- and accumulate that way of feeling!

We can’t force ourself to do things, by pushing. We can’t ‘just execute’ it’s not all about the execution. It’s about creating the inspiration before the action. Because action comes from thought. And forced action is essentially ‘I have to force myself to do this, otherwise it won’t happen…‘. But inspired action on the other hand is ‘I’m inspired, I’m uplifted, I’m excited to do this thing, because I’ve been given God like power through my imagination...’

We have to compound our wanted ideas. And an idea is a point of inspiration. So, if we compound inspired ideas, we compound energy too. Which is why the Brilliant writer is always full of energy. Because his sails are full of the life force of ideas from consuming content and information he enjoys.

If we fill oour head up from a point of curiosity and interest and joy, and we consume content that makes us FEEL GOOD, we will ideate on the same level. Which will by extent, creates more and more references – thoughts – about that feel good to think !

Don’t do things out of force. Doing things out of force is action from a place of fear. When we are fearful about the outcome of what we’re doing, example: ‘I’m creating a 100000 €!’ but somewhere we don’t believe in our ability to get it. We will force ourself to take action, and the extent of that is: doing what we hate. Sure we might end up with that sum, but at what extent, we just fucked up our entire journey, and our energy, and now we feel like a piece of shit because we’ve just spent all that time miserably in order to ‘feel good’ when the end result comes along.

But instead, if we decide to Do things from a place of power (when we get inspiration), we get an idea, and it gives us energy. We will be inspired to take action, we will be uplifted, we will be optimistic, we will be confident. Because the action we are taking, is from a place of deep emotional confirmation, because the idea stemmed from within us.

When we start taking action – because the internet guru told me! – we miss out on a vital vital piece of data; our own. If we’re taking information from the outside, from other people, and simply being directed by the flux of data being thrown at us by influencers all over the world, we won’t be doing it from a centered place, we’ll be doing it from a place of misalignement with ourself. Because we’ll be taking action from a place of fear of listening to ourself. And we can’t get what we want in life if we spend ourselves doing what other people tell us do to. We can only get what we want, because we create the ideas of what we want first.

How would I go about doing this?

First of all, forgive myself for being so hard on myself and forcing myself to go through everything I’ve been through. Be grateful for all my body has endured in that forceful state, in that it did really well.

Secondly, I’d now let go of that disfunctional way of acting. And implement a new way. I’d spend my time searching for and accumulating amazing content ( thoughts, concepts, things, music, videos, humour, magazines, pictures, …) that make me feel good when I consume them. Spend my time consuming these things until I get an idea, then start taking action on that idea from a place of emotional certainty. Then, I’d go back to the source of my ideas to draw out more inspiration, and continue down that road until I make enough progress.

Don’t just become water my friend. Become love. Become joy, become free, become happiness, become excited, become optimistic. Let these emotions become you my friend, and the world will open up to you …

All the best,

Cherokee Goldberg

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When things are falling apart, your life is supposed to be a mess.

When you’re going through a transformation, a transitory phase where nothing makes sense anymore, and you have no clue what you’re doing, or where you’re going, and you overhear some random preachy youtuber telling you that you need to ‘stop living in mess’. Take it as a pinch of salt. You’re life isn’t supposed to be picture perfect right now, because you’re going through unknown states that most people would probably repress.

Take consolation in the fact that in the midde of a storm, there will be wind and stuff gets blown all over the place. So, while you’re going through this transitory period where nothing makes sense, nothing feels clear, and your life seems to be falling apart, let go.

Accepting, and letting go, is probably the best you can do, because its being mature enough to see that you don’t have control over what is going on right now and acknowleging that no matter how much you clean your room or the dishes, your mind will still be a mess, until you let go of the material reality you’re fighting against and start to make internal shifts towards cleaning up, organising, spring cleaning what you don’t want, and amplifying what you would love to have more of.

Your life is supposed to be messy, until you get it together. The only notion of control you need is the ability to accept yourself, and making yourself your top priority. You get to shine your full attention on yourself, healing yourself, taking care of yourself, Loving yourself, and building yourself.

When life falls apart, and the way you were living needs to crumble, the more you hold on, the worse it gets. In fact, being rigid and not letting change occur is probably the best way to end up hurt.

‘BUT…’, we say, ‘I need to be in control’.

In control of what? One responds.

The only thing we can control is where we place our attention, how we choose to think about what we percieve, how we interpret the information and … that’s about it really.

We are here for the ride, God is in the drivers seat, we are but co-pilots giving indications to God about where to go, what to do, and so on. We are but children sitting in the passenger seat, observing the adult ‘do what we want’, except for when we’re wrong, the adult will continu to guide us towards a better circumstances.

You can have whatever you want in life. You really can. Absolutely anything. But you can’t have it, if the foundation of your Wanting it is based in lack, fear, pain, confusion etc.

Most of the time, we want things because of feelings we aren’t allowing ourselves to feel. Rejecting our circumstances, rejecting our body, jealousy because ‘others have and we don’t’ frustration ‘because things don’t workout the way we want’, self-hate ‘because we don’t comprehend what it is that we’re doing that is holding us back, fear ‘because we don’t know how x, y, z will turn out..’. And so, what do we do? We run towards the exact opposite, we run towards the contrast of what we are feeling in order to ‘balance out’ what we are experiencing. As a way of escape, because we ‘can’t accept’ the way we feel about our present circumstance.

In truth, the answer is Acceptance, letting ourselves take inventory of what is currently going on, what we have or don’t have, where we are, and how we feel about it. Most important, is the internal narrative going on, and the emotions we’re feeling about said experience. Very clearly, what will stick out is our rejection of what it is that we don’t want.

We are holding on, and fighting what it is that we don’t want, as if it will bring us back to ‘when things were good’ or bring us to ‘where we want to be’. This is erronious thinking, because essentially, we’re holding onto a piece of concrete in the middle of a house on fire because that concrete is cool and provides a ‘momentary relief’ to the situation we’re in. Holding on won’t help us go back in time to prevent the fire, and it won’t put out the fire and save us or take us to a nice new home. (Perhaps we might have a home in heaven if we hang on too long, but that’s another conversation…). The only solution, is to let go of that fixed solid thing that can’t change, accept that we need to look at our ‘flamboyant’ emotions that are getting out of control, and perhaps call the firebregade, or even get the hosepipe and start putting the fire out…

So, your life is mess right now. Great! That means, that you get the chance to arrange it the way you want it. It means, you have the liberty to re-create, to re-craft, to re-brand, transform, look back on eveything that you’ve done, all that you’ve accomplished. You can take stock of what you’re capable of, what you’ve learned, what you no longer want, and also you have an excuse to actually change. This is a good thing, it’s freeing.

You don’t have to always see the downside, sometimes you can see the brightside, be optimistic about how everything is going to hell.

When I was in university, I had a superb racing bike, just perfect. Carbon frame, super light, it felt like an exercise Ferrari. It was snappy, it was fast, it was light. And it turned heads. I was really proud of it. I’d worked hard at my first job, and when I left, I decided to reward myself with a beautiful roadbike. But then, one day, the gearbox had a problem, so I had to get it fixed. I took it to the bikeshop, and was told to comeback a week later. I left the bike with the new piece I had ordered, and left the bike guy do his thing. A week later, I get a call. ‘Your bike is ready, you can come and get it.’ Yey! So, I go in to town to pick it up. Everything flows perfectly, it no longer makes the ‘clunk’ noise it did the week before. So, I happily cruise through town on my incredible mecanical steed. Proudly, I accelerate to see if everything was ‘not too good to be true’, and it wasn’t, it was perfect. I then decided to pop into the library to say hello to a friend, so I attach the bike to the bikerack, and walk in to the establishment feeling carefree and renewed. 5 minutes after meeting up with my friend, I decide to go for a coffee, so I head out and to my internal bewilderment, my bike was gone. I looked around, just incase, but it was no where to be found. In that instant, I had been robbed blind. And my tendency to get infuriated would normally have risen to Vesivius Volcano level anger, but in that instant, I just chose to let go and move on. I had a few moments of confusion pop up, but I didn’t even engage the feeling of anger, I just let go and my day went on as if nothing happened.

I say all this, because, it illustrates the fact that some things aren’t in our control, and choosing to get angry would have actually hurt me after something bad happened. By letting go, I actually got to experience a feeling of freedom and release which would then open the door for me to move on flowingly and happily, because it was all outside of my control.

It’s freeing, because it allows you to go towards new things. It allows us to evolve.

We’re not here for the material, we’re here for our internal evolution, our internal experiences, and these experiences help us to shape who we become. From the vantage point of this perspective, we are on a journey to personal evolution towards better internal states. And truth be told, I was always super conscious of that bike, Godforbid I get a scratch or anything… Just like my parents sports car when I was younger, we had this red convertible, and the only thing which became apparent was the rarity and price of the car and how my mum was always worried about not damaging it…

Sometimes an old banger is enjoyable, because we get to be carefree. It’s that sense of freedom which is appealing, not the self-conscious, over-alert, inability to relax because we ‘might’ make a mistake, that’s a form of imprisonment, that’s not libertating, that’s fear inducing. What we want is to feel free, to feel joyful, to feel spontaneous, to be fully in the present moment, in flow with who we are, not one step removed thinking about what-ifs.

We search for things which we believe will give us forms of pleasure, as a contrast to the fears and pains we experience within. Instead of deciding to find internal harmony, to let go and be in peace, we’d rather take action and force our way towards a fickle and temporary solution.

When it comes time to let everything fall apart, sometimes its painful. And so, what do we do? We cling to ‘what is familiar’, what made us feel a certain way, what comforts us, because of Fear of the unknown. And that’s okay, it’s okay. Because it’s a temporary phase which we pass through, as we become aware of our internal courage, or that by letting go we can feel lighter or freeer, or a tamporary moment in time where we use this ‘crutch’ as a contrasting experience on which we can decide to turn East, North or West. Our experiences provide directional knowledge while we’re grasping in the dark for what lights up our soul. We’re kind of like a ball in a pinball machine, and we bounce of things that aren’t for us, we tense up when we think the ball is about to fall, and we relax when we know the ball is on the right trajectory towards it’s winning horizon.

Letting things fall apart, means that they were put together at some point in time. While asking one’s self, why things are falling apart, one might repond with a ‘perhaps, I didn’t put things together consciously and just accepted to live life, and be as I was told because I didn’t know any different‘. Perhaps, it’s time to let the storm happen, see that the storm is happening because we have expanded and grown out of the previous shell we ‘lived in’ and that we need to now rearrange our life so that we can continu expanding rather than fighting our previous limiting beliefs, lifestyle, life…

It’s a chance, because, we get to look back at all the things we have learned, all that we have done, and build back from the vantage point of having had a vast amount of wisdom and experience. Now we get to build a house and we get to choose every square inch, every color, every scent, every feeling … We get to now play the masters of our universe from the hight of our experience and we don’t have to make hasty decisions based on the outside world, fears, not knowing, and so on. We get to create freely who want what we want to be.

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Self-sabotage is actually an act of Love and self-fortification.  

I think that on some level, as human’s, we’re addicted to pain and struggle. It’s so hard to get to the point where you reject where you are. Especially when you’ve fallen so low because you took ‘the wrong path‘.  

But falling is part of life. You do it, because you already know how to get back up. I think, we just enjoy the journey of overcoming. Because, finding ways of expanding and breaking through stuff is what we enjoy most.

There are no wrong paths though, because the man who has to hike the mountain from the bottom again gets stronger legs and gets to see the beautiful scenary again from a wiser perspective.

We hate it, we hate it, we hate it, because it feels so painful. BUT! That pain is what pushes us to search for answers, it’s what pushes us to become wise. And, don’t we just absolutely Love to share our hard-earned wisdom?

When we feel we’ve somehow obliterated all our hard work, and we absolutely hate ourselves for having taken the wrong turn. It means that with all the hard work we’ve done, we’ve somehow managed to forget to Love ourselves.

Starting again, even if it seems like the absolute end of the world, is actually a chance to be more aligned and more loving with ourselfs this time.

Here’s the trick to this:

  • Accept where you are and take inventory(what do I have? what am I capable of? ‘How bad is it? How can I repair the current state of affairs?’, what do I know?…)
  • Once you’ve accepted where you are and what’s what. And you’ve listed what’s what. You can start to improve yourself by being loving and patient with yourself. See it as a challege, not a problem.
  • Make a clear goal regarding your current struggle and then start chipping away at your ‘mountain’ of work again. Before you know it, you’ll be back near where you were.
  • Cut off from ‘comparison’ and ‘what the others are doing’. That’s fuel for misery.
  • Give your attention to yourself, and only yourself. You are your absolute best friend. Your attention is like spotlight to the seed of your wellbeing.
  • Start from where you are. And let go of the past. You can’t start from the top of the mountain again if you fall down.
  • Do the best you can, with what you’ve Got.

A quick Tid bit of information:

– The original condition or worship, is a « state or condition of worth ».
When you embrace worship, then, your aim is to embrace your real worth :
the divine perfection that resides within you. With a path, we are no longer afraid or worried.  –

So, here’s a few question for you:

  • What is my northstar?
  • What does that northstar feel like?
  • How can I empower/abide by my internal feeling of bliss and grace ?
  • How can I best accept where I am?
  • How can I use my current journey to help other people?

When we fall low, it’s actually so we can rectify, or lead others back up our mountain, because we didn’t lead well the first time. Like a sherpa, you’re called to come back down to base-camp so that you can heal yourself and lead others back up to where you were going to, minus the excess bagage you thought you needed the first time.

All the best,

Cherokee Goldberg

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Ideation frequency

It’s the night before my 33rd birthday and I’m experiencing a shift.

I already knew that the quality of the content that we absorbe defines the quality of the output of thoughts that we then produce.

What I didn’t see, was that the elevation of the vibration of the content we consume, in addition with the intention of that content, defines the level of frequency with which we emit our ideation.

Another thought that comes to mind is that, the quality of frequency we consume, creates the quality of frequency of thoughts we produce. This leads us to share that frequency with others. Which in turn elevates and inspires and the universe then magnifies the intention and frequency we put out to the world back to us.

In addition, when we conclude that we are simply the observer to the thoughts and emotions that we experience, and that where we decide to place our attention creates the frequency of our thoughts and emotions, and like in the Dr.Emoto water study, our thoughts and emotions emulate the frequency of that which we observe. Which is why, we become what we continually observe.

Like a butterfly, when you realize that flying is faster than crawling along the floor, you will realize that the quality of frequency (be that of people, thoughts, content, spaces, food…) you imbibe defines the speed at which you’re able to vibrate, which impacts the quality of what you’re able to attract.

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The right way, or the optimal way

What if we didn’t do things the “Right way”, but instead, did things the most optimal way?

Our body doesn’t come with an instruction manual. Oh but wait it does. Only, no one has taught us about it… (I’ll come back to this in a moment).

I’ve been thinking, I haven’t been very present on my blog in the last year. I do appologize. I’ve been working hard to aclimate myself to the new dynamics of my life. Having lost my father last April, my personal dynamic has been out of whack.

Not only that, I’ve been pretty lost, because I spend the better part of 2023 learning Programming languages. I’ve been lost, because when you do something you’re not supposed to be doing, you end up cloging up your way of thinking. You end up going against what works for you and you end up creating problems.

As a writer, learning to ingest code and then output code, has been like putting mud into my verbal flow. Rather than flow, I’ve experienced a bit of ebb. Rather than experience the subtle and intangible whispers of my soul, I’ve been quite insensitively laying down logical bricks of code. Rather than the refined and light caress of words and ideas under my breathe, I’ve been forcefully producing code, mentally hammering it into it’s functional and pragmatic place.

There is nothing so deadening for the soul than to consume something as a computer language. Perhaps finance, I wouldn’t know as I’m purely soul driven.

Anyway… I’ve been thinking lately, since I got into code, I started to neglect myself, I wasn’t listening to how I felt. And because of this dynamic, I ended up feeling incredible fomo, because I wasn’t producing anything from the soul, I wasn’t able to express myself clearly, and I was stuck in a numb wordless state, unable to put words on what I wanted. Though, I did become incredibly aware of what I wanted suddenly. All the things that money can buy, to fill the internal abyss which had been created due to lack of respect for my gifts and optimal ways of functionning.

I ended up wanting to travel, things that money can buy, things I didn’t have. All of this started to arise, because I wasn’t able to accept, embrace, or even value what I had and everything surrounding that. I was focussed on filling the mind with functional logic understanding. I wasn’t able to access any form of acceptance for the perfectly optimized life I already had.

You see, I’ve been a writer for a long time, my mind favours words [in the VAKOG I’m an audiory 1st, then visual, then kinesthetic]. but also, I’ve never had a thing for maths as a kid. I was always an ideas kind of person. I’ve always been hyper aware of my soul, and its fine expression. What I already knew before learning code, is that my life is taylor made for me, and everything I have at my disposition is perfect for my purpose in life. The parents I had/have, my interests, my friends, my awareness, my understanding, my mindset, my mental process’s, what lights me up, the gifts I’ve recieved, the things I’ve been proud about. Even my date of birth resonates with expression [21 = 3]. I’ve studied literature and philosophy, I’ve also studied law, I’ve been in sales, and in customer care, I’ve written a few books, and this blog for a while.

Looking back at my life, I wanted to understand what I could do, and if I could push my ability to expand a little. And I have expanded, and even grown, but there’s a fine line between growth and stress, once we step over growth and stumble into forced action, we’re no longer growing, we’re saturating to the point where we’re not able to recover the same.

So, as I said, I’ve been thinking.

Instead of functionning from a place of lack, from a place where we need something external as a compensation for our not paying attention to what we’re feeling. Instead, if we decide to focus on what we have, and what our gifts are, suddenly we access a degree of wealth no money can buy, and what’s more, we’ll do a far better job/work because we do what we love, so we’ll get recompensation for our ability.

When we function from the inside out, rather than the outside in, we fill ourselves up, we heal, we grow, we feel good. When we live from the outside in, striving for goals, wanting externalities, and so on, we’re in a state of lack, so we’re at a disadvantage. Instead, it’s important to see how what we do, what we have, and our purpose all align. When we look at our purpose and our gift, we realize we have abundantly more than we know what to do with.

I did say, I’d talk about the right way and the optimal way, so here goes.

As a man thinketh, so is he. But something is missing. I can’t simply cut out my emotional intelligence. My heart is my spiritual guidance. And if I am not attuned to how I feel, I will simply become beligerant with my words and actions, and by extension with those around me.

For better or for worse, my mind is a tool which serves my spirit. My spirit talks trhough my EQ and my mind serves my spirit. Not the other way around.

My spirit needs to be lit up, it needs to be inspired. My spirit is inspired by the fuel I feed my mind. Not the other way around; my soul is not fuel for results, results are output of my souls process.

My soul dictates the way, my mind is in service to that way. And my body is here to house my soul and mind for their journey. My emotions are indicators, like lights on a dashboard, to indicate whether I am hot or cold in “doing” my life purpose.

I am supposed to create, to write, to output, to express my soul. I am supposed to listen to my emotions, not make them scream at hyper intensity and take that out on my body through the need to “channel” my energy.

I am supported by angels for my mission. My words are translations of my subtle essence. I cannot force my body or soul, only my mind. So why let the mind think it can force the soul?

If we reverse what we normally do, what society has taught us, we may get a path that works, one that’s functional for us.

  • Instead of letting the mind use our soul and body, let the soul use the mind. Which will then empower the mind to empower the body, able to listen to it.
  • Listen to your emotions, they’re the guiding lights in your present moment to clarify if you’re on the right path.
  • Cherish your body as a temple for your soul.
  • Obey your soul.
  • Go at your own rythme.

Shut out the world, and the noise; and learn to accept your heart. As, you will find there the door to your soul.

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Put a bit of Heart in your Head.

I want you to remove from your head the belief that you have little time. I want you to remove the pressure from your heart. I want you to embrace that you have all the time in the world and that the dream you so desire is unfolding as you let it.

Your deepest desires are not too far from reach. It is the fear, it is the doubt, it is the frustration and the external pressure that everything must happen NOW, and that a sense of external urgency force-fed to you over and over prevents you from actually being able to appreciate your present moment enough to build with it or even trust in it, that the life you so desire is only around the corner.

You are wonderful, maybe no one has told you today. And the idea that you are somehow lacking in some foreign way prevents you from sitting in the hot water of your hearts bath.

Immersed in love you are my friend, and yet you are blind to the abundant and limitless bliss that surrounds you.

If you could only remove the contrast and comparison of the the agressive perfection you are attacked by day by day; could you fully embrace the wonders of your graceful heart.

I want you to see the good, to see the well of goodness that surrounds you, and which emanates from within you. For you are different, you are special, you are here on a mission, and your sole purpose is to shine from within that incredible heart.

You are here to serve others, not as a slave, but as a master of your ship. You are here to serve others by being in service to your good heart. By being loving, and warm, and patient with yourself, and by allowing yourself to believe that the beauty you envision and so hope for is waiting for you behind that dreadful wall you distrust so much; the fearful future who holds over you what you want not, dictating the miseries of all the world.

Step aside, there is another path; faith. Have faith, and even if you don’t believe in some higher force, in yourself, and that for all the goodness that resides within you the world will somehow try to pull that out of you and bring it to the surface. Trust, that your good heart only has one purpose; to live within Love (to love and be loved).

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You are a heavenly soul

To live a life worth living doesn’t seem like a life you can replace or sometimes even envy. Because to the outside eye, living a life of internal bliss doesn’t equate to being externally attractive, because we don’t live abiding to the rythme of the corporate result oriented or the profit driven salesmen… We live abiding to the musings of our abundant but quiet soul.

We don’t jump through the hoops to entertain, we silently sidestep them on our way towards that quiet café on the riverbank. Where the wind whistles, and the reeves dance.

Rather than a circus freak performing for the everyday townsman, I am a lover of nature and a romantic enjoyer of spontaneous subtleties. The silent observer and soulful witness to Gods perfect manifestation around me. Can I transmit and describe acurately, no.

But I can strive to feel as aligned as possible to the finite and intangible benevolent forces, of course. This means I am more aligned with the real world which embraces me in my current circumstance.

Let the breeze caress your skin on this warm lighted, candle sented, sunny morning. The air is cold and cool, the tree’s are crisp, and the sunlight envelops their tiny leaves and branches while the birds chip and sing their fragrant melody and call out across this early spring.

Balm for my spirited soul, is my observance of such a quiet peace.

I hope not to replace it, with the brute-force presence of fearbased material driven people.

So I sit, and shun my work and write to you in the hopes my morning description kisses your heart and uplifts your feelings. Hopefully giving you an awe induced morning awakening.

Heaven is here on earth, heaven is here within, heaven is you; and you offer heaven to the world.

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The intention of love.

I think, maybe the greatest tragedy, is that we don’t compliment the people we love nearly enough. And yet, we compliment people we admire, strangers,. Because they’re new and we pay attention to new. We pay attention to celebrities and megastars, because we aspire to them.

But the people who’ve always been there, who are loving, who have supported us every step of the way, or at least most. They get the most ungrateful return for birthing us into the world. They create us, yet they get the most stick. The people who stand by us and are there every step of the way, they get ignored, or worse we disguard them, because they’re there, simply in the background perhaps. Because these loving, caring, patient people, are in high supply, we value them less.

Human beings are wierd, they value what is rare, because some thousands of years ago what was rare was valuable for survival. Food wasn’t available in the fridge so they had to hunt and risk their lives faced with wierd looking scaly predators with big teeth. Then Gold became an important tool to measure payment to who had something of value instead of seashells.

And then somewhere along the way, having a crown watch or a red car became a signaling good to express that we have a surplus of material and we can afford to splurge on luxury, or unessential to survival. When we have everything covered financially, we can focus on the superficial aspect of things. Which is why, women tend to show superficiality as a marker of wealth (a lot of the time). Its a signaling state of their inherant value, or that society places on beauty. So they invest in signaling brands, signaling activities, signaling surgeries to show the level of worth they believe they are. And they become ‘rare’ or at least they act like they do, because they are in high demand due to the desirability factor.

But, back to what matters. The low demand, high supply in those we love.

It’s not because we don’t need someone, or that we don’t depend on, or require someone to do something for us, that they have no value. It’s simply that we can’t see that value because they’re not proposing the value proposition that we’re searching for.

So, when we have a parent who doesn’t necessarily meet our requirements for what is interesting or we meet a young woman who’s pretty, exciting and engaging and on our level; the natural response is to disguard them, or to ignore what they’re saying, or to be disrespectful in some way, or to belittle whatever value they bring to the table. This couldn’t be further from the right way to be.

The thing I like about Italian families, or Chinese families, is that multiple generations live together, supporting each other within the household. Obviously, in our western world, everything is disconnected, we become bachelors, live in houses on our own, and attract women who use all forms of signalling to show they have worth.

In my own way, I propose that everyday, instead of finding something that someone can be of value to us for, we find ways we can be of value to them. Paying back, being of service and being uplifting and supporting to those around us. Even if they’re not ‘seemingly’ making our lives better.

The thing is, I realized when my dad passed, that it’s not because someone is present that they don’t have value. And its not because someone’s not proposing something we value, they that don’t have value. What I like is subjective proportional to my standards and expectances of life. What someone else has to propose is proportionel to them. In every expression there is contribution, and everyone has a different expression to contribute. Which we’re all, too often, busy trying to disguard because it doesn’t fit the shopping list we want and aspire to.

Maybe, take a moment to value that we’re not all the same. That we all have different abilities, and we’re not all Leonardo Davinci great in everything we do. But we are great, in the intentions we put forth.

In my fathers last days, I realized that its not the perfect expression I wanted from him so much that I miss. It’s his presence, its his warmth, its his reaching out, its the exchange. It’s the little messages to see if I’m okay, and to checkup on how I’m doing. It’s the intentions to do the little things which make us ‘feel’ supported, which make us ‘feel’ valued. Even if the way its done is not perfect.

And these little intentions, even if they’re not expressed in the perfect way we want, make us feel the perfect way we want to feel.

The way our loved ones make us feel, is deeper than our mental standards, anything that someones wordly expression can bring forth.

In order of importance, our words and the way they’re used, count for 7% . While our tonality counts for 38% and our phyiscal expression counts for 55%. The words we use are by consequence of little value. It’s important to use the right words, but how those words are said, and with what intent matters much much more.

So, its worth noting the value of a relatives intangible and sometimes invisible intentions which influence the way they make you feel. The magic is under the surface, in what they bring out of you, and how special they make you feel.

Don’t lose any more time bikering about the details. Embrace the time you have left, focussing on whats important. The intention.

All the best,

Cherokee Goldberg

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18 useful points (and a tiny smiley face)

New year, same me, different perspective, new goals.

Before reading anything:

Feel free to interpret this however it will serve you. I’m not a dictator. I don’t impose what I write as a cookie-cutter solution for everyone. What you perceive in this may resonate, it may not. Read between the lines. Take things with a pinch of salt. And if you like something, leave a comment or a thumbs up so I know that I did something to good for someone.

I’ve decided to start documenting my journey, and build openly from 0€ to 1M, so that I can provide value for anyone who is struggling to make money and create actual value online. As well as keep trace of my journey. It’s also good because it give me a form of accountability. 

So far I’ve found these points to be of use to me.

Driving factor

This being said, there are many ways to make money online, though it is brought often to my attention through the people I encounter, and through my reading, that attempting anything solely for money just does not work. In fact, whenever money is the driving factor, I most always obsessively burn myself out because nothing else matters. And ‘else’ does matter. 

I confirm this through my own experience; over and over I’ve encountered failure after failure. Not because I’m not hard working, but because after a while, I lose interest, I lose the drive, and my focus fizzles out. I move on to the next, and lose interest all together in anything related to the project. Why? Because money isn’t fulfilling, it’s rewarding, and reward doesn’t fill you up, the fulfillment you get during your process does. And I believe it’s Steve Jobs who said that ‘the only way to do great work, is to Love what you do.’

Some people can do things solely for money, though I’ve found that money can never be a decision factor for me. I like money, I enjoy using money, and I enjoy all the things I can do with money. Though, at the end of the day, it is a tool, something to help you (be, do, achieve, render service, have… etc). Money doesn’t fulfill you, especially during the process of acquiring it. At least it doesn’t for me. 

I’ve found that, if money is at the top of my decision pyramid, all of my core values aren’t as important as money and I become corrupted (corps-rupture = cut off from the intelligence of my body) and end up going down silly paths. In fact, without values, one becomes a wh*re for money (excuse my French) and all of our important values get thrown out of the window. Hence why we live in a society where most of our social media is based on hype and click bait. 

Define Values

So, it becomes increasingly important that one define their values first and foremost and then strive with the framework of those values as invisible guiding forces. If we stray away from our values, we most often find ourselves doing anything, and anything doesn’t necessarily allow us dignity, or a constructive lifestyle. 

I’m a big believer that the process and standards we impose on ourself is what we impose on others. So, if we stress ourselves out and whip ourself into action; guess what, we’ll most likely do that to others. So, self-love becomes quite important too in the achievement of one’s financial success. 

And come to think of it, I can’t allow myself to start this journey with you by saying — as I said earlier on — I’m going from 0 to 1M. Sure, that’s a nice vision to have. But it doesn’t drive my actions, and it can’t drive my actions. It does give me an indicator of scale, of importance, of the value of my work, and impact I have on helping others. This is what I can see within the 1M reference. 

Process

The larger the number, the more pressure I put on my creative process. But, we human-beings are not coal, we don’t transform into diamonds. I’m all for pressure and steel forges steel and all that but, when it comes to quality, I like the approach of a local butcher my father introduced me to many years ago. Let’s call him Mr.D.

Mr.D was a butcher and farmer who believed that the quality of the meat he sold to his clients was directly affected by the quality of the lives his animals lead. A stressed cow produces stressed meat. An unstressed cow however would produce a tender meat. So Mr.D decided to let his cattle roam free the entirety of their lives, right up to the very last second where he’d drive one up to the back of the shop only a few hours before displaying it to customers. 

What I take from this, I apply to my creative process. The quality of the input of information I consume, is defined by the intention and quality of my state and mental process, and the result is that a quality input, and a quality process produce a highly valuable output of information/solution/production that has served me well. And this, I intend to continue doing. 

What the 1M reference doesn’t take into account is personal fulfillment, enjoyment, the quality of the journey, the value of my work, attention to detail, how much effort will go into providing something that people want. The personal side of the venture. The joy I take in discovering a new fact, or ideate a new solution. 

When people lose interest and / or fulfillment on a job, they move on. This is why, being aligned with what we enjoy is of utmost importance. Which brings me to my last year. 

Understand your nature.

Since September 2022, I decided to go back to school to become a Full stack developer. And since this period, I have spent the majority of my time reading, testing, applying code. While it does have upside, and it can be helpful to produce solutions. I also saw a lot of downside to learning code. 

I saw my mental clarity become scattered, my handwriting started to slant backwards, my ideation flow became ebbed and because I’m an auditive primary (vakog) less words = less expression, my thought process became less fluid, and I became less and less clear about how I am feeling, what my intuition is telling me, as well as losing interest in being in front of a computer screen at all. 

And for a writer, or at least a creative dreamy ideator like me, this means feeling dead. Sure, I could write code, implement control structures, automate outcomes and add Api’s to things. But at what cost?! Because, my sole purpose to learn code was to get a job that could provide a stable income, I was doing it for money. Not necessarily because I ‘loved it’. 

Straying from your nature will produce anti-productive outcomes

Another thing I’ve observed with ‘doing something we don’t like’ is that when our daily process is spent doing something we don’t enjoy for the purpose of money, we end up seeking forms of pleasure and instant gratification that we wouldn’t normally have to if we were fulfilled by a work well-done. I believe the quote is to ‘live a life we don’t want to escape from’. 

We can’t live a life we don’t want to escape from, if we spend the majority of our day focused or thinking about something which isn’t what we truly want. And so, the inevitable solution is to find what we love to do. 

Connect the dots.

In order to succeed, I’ve found that we must connect the dots looking back and define a theme. My theme is [Ideation, writing, speaking, creativity] verbal expression/ communication. If I disconnect from that, I will feel a lack of enlightenment. I must read every day in order to write every day, and I must write in order to have clarity of mind. And in order to speak well, I must have clarity of mind and references of ideation, which come from reading and writing. 

This is the paradigm I must live in. If I don’t apply it, it becomes my prison. If I do apply it, it becomes my liberation. But either way, it seems to be the only path which I can travel which fills my soul, and gives me the clarity and energy to do anything and everything else. 

Without food and words, life isn’t really worth living. Love comes and goes apparently, but food and words must be daily. 

Deliver Value to others

I’ve found also that in order to succeed and do well in business, one has to wrap the entire business around two points. The first is to make that business customer centric. The second is to be in love with the process of delivering results to that specific customer. And I believe that if we have both ingredients, it hightens the probabilities of achieving a successful business. 

Use contrast to understand yourself and see life more clearly. 

Over the last few years, I decided to go experience as much contrast, difficulty, and even pain and embarrassment as possible. (Bear with me, there is a method to my madness). In order to create the fuel which would propel me towards achieving the pleasure I wanted. 

When I left high-school (2012, a good number of years ago now..), I observed that I was ambitious, but I had no drive, no motivation to make money. I was good at everything else in life, but money was not my strong suit. And I needed money to afford living a lifestyle that would attract the woman I’d want to be with. So, I devised of a plan to suffer and create references that I’d never want to ever experience again, in order to fuel me towards the desired outcome I dreamed of having. Drive is defined by an axis of Pain and Pleasure. 

Now, enough about me already.. How do I intend to succeed? 

Discover your zone of Genius / Strength

When I was younger, I noticed that I could do really well in one specific area; sports. I hated school, mostly because I rejected all authority (as an aftermath of rejecting the example my father lead), but I had a lot of energy to apply. So, I became the football captain and striker, I worked obsessively to run faster, and I’d train over and over until I could put the ball where I wanted. And so on… Okay, nothing special yet.. Then, I started to notice that because I was doing well on the team, I started to do well with the guys on the team. And because I did well with the guys on the team, this transfered to my social too, so I started to do a lot better with women because I could lead men. (I think lead is a strong word for a kid who could put a ball in a net, influence might be more appropriate). 

Doing well, and focusing on my strong suit, allowed me to develop confidence. This confidence allowed me to become more popular. And that popularity, allowed me to shine who I was. Now, I all of that was based on physical prowess and the fact I peaked in high-school and seemed to have some sort of a clue of how the world worked. I didn’t, I simply understood how to work social situations to my advantage, like most students in school… Doing what was trendy, standing out, and being loud somehow, but also a little vulnerable. but I digress.. 

Focusing on my strong suit, allowed me to Shine. And in my ability to shine, I became attractive, outgoing and popular. So, that is a success for a student, who wants to be liked by his peers.

Focussing on my strong suit / what comes naturally to me, and going all in on what only I can do, in addition to finding a pain point to provide a solution only I can provide due to my strong suit, will allow me to produce a high output of value overtime, without too much fatigue. Because at the end of the day, its all about consistency and compounding of value. 

Be the Master your own narrative. Be selective of who puts what in your mind. Define your own future.

Which brings me to determining, What empowers you the most in the world? The information related to solving your present/current pain point. The one which will enable you to 10x yourself. The insight that will help you define the next clear step and direction you need to take.

As human beings, we are interested and curious about the future, but we’re not able to determine it clearly. We love predictions and astrology and even the doomsday theories we imbibe when we listen to .. any random youtuber today, about “how the end of the financial market..” or how “AI will put an end to.. and you’ll get left behind…”. The point is, we focus on these ‘alert’ messages, because we want information about how to go towards the future without encountering death. We need to prevent death. 

Though, when we’re preventing death, we’ve already lost the game. 

Hone the present day

You see, the most important thing to note is that, if someone else is telling you how the future is, they are dictating not only the future you will go towards, but they are robbing you of the power to take action in the present. Without a compelling future to go towards, we are robbed of the gift within the present moment: the possibility to take inspired action to build towards that future. 

So, it’s my understanding, that if we reject the future, we will also reject our present, which prevents us from doing anything of value. 

In contrast, I’ve understood through my own experience, that we must START where we are. When you choose the state you are currently in, and accept it. You can start working towards where you want to go with the thing you want to evolve.

  • Start where you are mentally, find where you are on your internal path.
  • Start where you are physically, what weights can you lift and grow your muscle with here, not the heaviest you can lift, but what can your muscle comfortably support.
  • Start with where you are emotionally, what are you feeling right here and don’t repress it.
  • Start where you are financially, what do you have and how can you BEST use those finances for the best impact Right now? Instead of wanting more to do what you can already best start.
  • Start out where you are health-wise
  • Start out where you are relationship-wise.
  • Start-out where you are business wise, start with what you’ve got and do the best you can.
  • Start out where you are spiritually.
  • Start out where you are habit-wise.

When we can accept where we are, first and foremost, we can decide to empower what we have and appreciate what we have. When we reject where we are, what we have, we can’t use it to our advantage, we can’t build on it, we can’t grow it. We must start from where we are. If you can start from where you are, you have control. You don’t have control or power over something that is out of your reach.

Community

I’ve gone at it alone, a lot. Simply because I needed to make a lot of mistakes, and test a lot of things quickly. Though, once those things are over, one tends to feel somewhat isolated. And success isn’t supported by isolation, its supported by networking. We succeed as part of a community we participate in. Even if its simply being seen, witnessing someone elses presence can be a huge determiner of how well you perform. Being around other entrepreneurs and solopreneurs is a massive game-changer, and saves you a tremendous amount of time. Not to mention that it keeps you accountable to live up to your word.

Join a club, have a team

When, I was younger, I played soccer on the local team. I didn’t think much of it back then. All I knew was that I practiced a lot, and put in a lot of personal hours on the side. Though, with retrospect, being a part of a whole like a soccer team is valuable. It gives you a standard to perform at. On your own, you are at the mercy of even the wind blowing in a direction. When you’re surrounded by a team, you are within a structure which imposes a certain form of conduct, and expects you to live up to the same goals. So it’s important to be around other people, even if you don’t necessarily have the same values, who have a a similar goal to you. You’ll become alies in mutual success.

Having a clear and meaningful vision.

Lack of vision is probably the most painful state. Because nothing is clear and everything is anarchy. In order to make sense of anarchy, one must have a point to aim for, otherwise one gets swayed and caught within the disorder of what is passing at that moment.

Having a clear vision is also motivational. It helps give meaning to the actions and process we enact while going towards it. If the outcome is a meaningful vision, then the journey towards that vision will be all the better. Taking action, simply because it fulfills the steps layed out to achieve an outcome which has no meaning to us is worthless. And what is more, detached from our internal journey we travel while we work. So a meaningful vision is fulfilling as much as it is useful.

Enjoy the journey.

For the past 10 years, I’ve killed myself to produce outcomes, reach achievements and so on. But.. Living in a future which would never come. This is a draining way to live life. And what’s more, we miss out on the present life we have, while waiting for a better situation which could potentially never arrive. That, in my view is a waste, and I suppose I could say its ungrateful to God for the present circumstances given to us. If we truly appreciate what we have, then we also appreciate our present moment and time enough to optimize how we experience them and what we do with them. Living for the future is ungrateful of the present, and also if that future is taken away, your sense of meaning goes too.

Another thing; when you enjoy the journey, you are in joy. And when you enjoy yourself, it makes your experience worth living. Being in stress all the time wrecks havoc in your health, or at least your health takes a toll. Having faith in the journey and enjoying what is in front of us is beneficial.

Choose appreciation and Gratitude over impossible standards and complaints.

When we appreciate what we have, just like in trading when an asset appreciates, we grow what we have. Or at least we grow the reference of what we have within our internal kingdom; the mind. Being grateful for what we experience, for what we have, and for those around us, grows the amount of references/seeds we have within.

Embrace what is in front of you.

For the longest time, I rejected what was in front of me. The people, the environment, pretty much everything which wasn’t what I didn’t want. And so, I disempowered myself as a result of rejecting what was around me. Everything around us can be considered a block to build with, and if we’re so stubborn as to believe that the grass is greener somewhere else, then you never water your own circumstances. Its with gratitude that we grow our current circumstance, and we’re able to make use of everything that is around us.

Ex: I need to go to silicon valley in order to be around the best in the world. But, if I actually look around, there are startup incubators around where I am. There are successful people here too. There are opportunties here, and great people to network with. And whats more, if I don’t succeed here, why do I expect to succeed there? I’m simply saying I need a better looking building and people in order to be able to achieve what I can achieve here anyway if I put my limitations and blockages to bed.

I think its Walter Wattles, in The Science of being Great, who said that: one must do a great job where one is, and only with a certain frame of mind can one grow out of ones circumstance.. That one will find ones personal mediocrity in every circumstance, until one becomes great where he already is. — I hope I’m correct, although I’m quoting from memory, I read the book a long while ago…

Breathe.

Rome wasn’t built in a day. There’s no point getting yourself into a heart-attack by trying to have over night success, because everyone else is applying this AI tactic… Your boat won’t leave without you. Or as is said in Conversations with God, you can’t fail. You may take a detour, but you will get there at some point. Just don’t give up.

Take a break and breathe from time to time. Contemplate everything you have achieved. Witness the beauty around you, or if it is lacking, imagine something beautiful. Turn on some classical music, or a tune that elevates the mood.

Sometimes, doing more work isn’t the solution. Taking a step away to see the picture clearer later on is.

You aren’t subject to VC’s, no one is on your back expecting an elevated return (hopefully). March to the sound of your own drum, and listen to your own rythme. After all, we’re not in school anymore, the only person who takes care of us, is us. And if you don’t respect yourself enough to slow down once in a while, no one else will.

If you don’t have a plan for yourself care, someone will have a plan for you, and that doesn’t look healthy.

🙂