If you’re cut off from your emotions, but need to reach your goal while feeling like you’re in absolute darkness. Refer to the DCI Framework.
While the devil will try to trick you, and what to do if you’re stuck in a form of prison cell, even if its within you.
If the Devil can convince you that you can’t have what you want in the future, he will tempt you into giving up everything in the near present.
At the start of 2024, I experienced a trauma, and have been stuck within that bottle, unable to pop that cork. Going round in circles, unable to get to the other side to enjoy what life has to offer. – It’s taken my ability to feel anything, my ability to exercise, my ability to feel emotions, my inner impulse and guidance system, it’s taken my ability to have a clear mind, and it’s taken my ability to feel certain about the future. It’s taken my energy, and has made me doubt, given me confusion, and made me feel cut off from the world. 2 cm away from success and the devil puts you in hell. FFS… Right?
But, this isn’t my first rodeo. This isn’t my first trauma, and luckily I developed tools beforehand. So, I am in the habit of figuring things out, and being in tricky situations.
In a past life I’d have called myself an escape artist. Although, for this trick, I’m not certain how to escape tbh… I digress..
The devil tries to convince you, that your future is no longer attainable. You either give into it, or you give up, thinking that your dreams are no longer possible for you. This is illusion. You will rise again tomorrow morning, and you will, at some point, overcome this thing. It’s a matter of time and understanding.
I’ve created a framework for if you’re uncomfortable and dealing with automatic trauma/addiction/seeking for external ‘signs’ in order to confirm you’re on the right path.
You see, in my life, currently, I can’t feel, I have no sense of feeling or emotion, no impulse, no higher thinking, and my body seems to be my enemy. I have no form of ‘internal’ narrative, and no mental clarity to guide myself with.
But I know a few things.
- My gift requires input, which is fuel. And if, even if I don’t have access to what is happening within, I can sense that my body is creating energy and there is a little enthusiasm, as I go through the motions.
- I know that if I go towards the direction I’m striving for, my energy perks up.
- I know that if I look at certain things, just looking will deplete my energy.
- And I know what direction I need to be aiming for.
- And if I decide to go towards my risk, everything feels possible.
I currently have the obstacle of having zero guidance, zero reference, no impulse, no help, and I feel like I’m in the dark, alone, cut off. It’s scary, but… when we are in the dark, we must remind ourselves that, we are the light, and we are to guide others.
The Direction / Confirmation / Information framework.
I don’t have access to the infinite wisdom of my body, but I do have cues, and by observing, I can sense that I get uncomfortable and immediately start to search for ‘desirable’ things instead of being able to process the emotion, so I have to put all of this aside.
As soon as I start to get a bit ‘nervy’, I have to refer to this framework, to keep me on track.
Am I in need of direction? If this is the case, then I should refer to my plan.
If I am in need of confirmation, I’m seeking for something to tell me that I am ok, and I’m going in the right direction.
If I don’t know something, or how to solve it, instead of having access to that – like I normally do – , I need to refer to the tools that can help me with what it is that I don’t know.
And of course, a reminder, of why I am doing what I am doing.
The paradise, the state of care, feeling, taking care of mama, having my energy back again.
So, having an understanding of my obstacle, gives me a question of where I need to put my focus, and if I can do that, I can chose what is most important. (Bare in mind, that I seem to have had an absolute emotional reset, my EQ is stupid right now). So, having a rational map to help me navigate what it is that I’m feeling is helpful.
Short advice to the brave man in the winds of winter
Don’t waste your time making money. Don’t waste your time on things that don’t matter.
Waste your time, with those you love, for their life is fleeting and when it runs out, they’re gone.
Try to enjoy yourself as much as you can, while you’re free to do so.
Freedom is of the mind, and even the small freedoms you do have are worth a lot.
You just can’t see it.
Don’t waste your time with societal blaaa, people will always follow trends to seem important, to fit in, to be seen as great. All of these things are trivial.
True wealth is time spent, appreciating your loved ones, even the ones you hate.
But be careful to follow so readily those who tell you to cut off from your family.
The biggest narcissists write books about the topic then stand in the limelight with their face on the cover.
The joy you’ll get from waking up with a light heart is worth a million times
more than the accolades you’ll get from doing things for riches.
No one talks about the sacrifices it takes to ‘be successful’ in the societal sense of the term.
No one talks about the loss incurred and the time wasted, to build a business.
And while it is all rather important from a material stance. No one gets to heaven in a Lambo.
In the end, even those you thought were friends will move on and you will find yourself faced with yourself,
if you have the courage to look yourself in the eye and deal with your depth;
That’s all you’ll ever need.
But of course you will need more, you’ll need to love other people more than you love yourself; you’ll need to sacrifice yourself in order to take care and protect those you love.
If you can brainwash yourself into success and riches, start by brainwashing yourself into loving yourself.
Allow yourself to drink a nice steaming hot cup of cocoa from time to time, you’re not a machine. Hustle culture is the downfall of our modern society and proof of insecurity.
Success is gained through your vibration and that’s gained by the people around you. While you may be smart and have many skills. It’s only when those skills are faced with the right people that they make sense.
Try not to screw up too bad, be gentle if you can.
How about Go slow, don’t break things.
Take your time.
-Cherokee
Broken
You don’t want success. What you want is recognition.
But I’m not certain you’ll like what you find when you get it.
I’m not sure you’ll like the price you’ll have to pay.
I’m not sure you’ll want what you want.
What you really want, is what you already have.
Except you can’t accept it, or see its value, because you think the value is elsewhere.
Just as you think the value is in some future state or looking another way.
The value is in your eye, the value is in what you think you will obtain. But when you get there, you’ll want to close your eyes. You’ll have made the mistake of trading it all against something.
The truth is, it was all perfect, you just couldn’t see it from where you were standing.
You don’t want success. You want self love.
You don’t want money, you want energy, creativity, and inner freedom.
You don’t want someone to whisk you away, you want to love where you are.
You’ll never find what you’re looking for in matter.
You’ll never truly be content, if the blueprint of your heart doesn’t match in reality.
And if you so chose to accept the leap, you’ll forget in that moment all you’re leaving behind. And when you come back, all that you loved will be gone, and you will be alone, with your mistakes.
I’m normally one to give the beautiful optimism and silver linings, but sometimes, you fuck up, and there’s nothing you can do about it. For some reason, you could not foresee. But it alters your life forever.
Your paradise, the place you felt good, is now elsewhere. The place you felt at ease, it all looks exactly the same, but no where can you find Home. Home is gone, and its just you and yourself, interacting with those you love – from a distance.
Then, I calm my mind, and listen to my heart. Electrified. Not the harmonious and peaceful place I’ve always called home.
Breathe… Accept the emotion… Breathe…
Are you fear based or love based?
Here’s the thing. When you decide to go into life, it doesn’t matter what you do, so long as you do it from a place of fulfilment and process. I’ve been harking on this for years.. In 2022, I wrote a series of newsletters and articles that I didn’t publish, but had multiple realisations, only to then get reminded of the extent of what I had written and the importance of sharing it. So here goes.
When you go into life, and decide to go forward towards something, we have essentially two choices. The first, is to reject our present moment, and so we reject the gift within it. The possibility to take action from a place of fulfilment.. I know, I’ve said this multiple times, even in my book… And on the other side… taking action from a place of fulfilment and gift. When we act from a place of fulfilment and gift, what happens is, it fills us up, it enlightens us, it fills our energetic circuits, and shifts us from a place of fear and lack to a place of abundance and possibility. By making this micro shift, we start to fill up our energetic reserves and we start to feel optimistic. This is due to the activity. I’ll explain.
When we strive for a future from a place of lack, we actually project to a future from a place of lack. Our process drains us, so we can only see a future where we’ll be drained somehow. The future cannot be bright. On the otherside, if our process fills us up, we can’t help but be optimistic about the future we’re going towards, because the more we go towards a future from this point of process ( it fills us up ) the better and brighter it will seem to us.
Essentially, we project the state we have from our daily process. If our present state, and ability to accept how we feel and the effects of the process on us, are positive, aligned with our gift, we align with a dream type future which we translate as ‘purpose’.
If our present state – right here and right now – is negative, because we’re not grateful for what we have, we reject our natural gifts, and our process depletes us.. in other words we decide to go to work to get money so that we can be valued or buy things or go places that will value us so that we can be loved… well the inevitable outcome will be that of a hellish future we want to get away from. And the outcome of that will be procrastination, as a result of you not wanting to go forward to that future. You’ll literally undermine your efforts at every turn, no matter how disciplined you are. And even if you don’t undermine yourself and manage to create output… the universe around you, events will happen, which will knock you back into alignment with the track you’re supposed to be on.
Solution to your dream life? Start by feeling well, where you are, by doing things you love, where you are. If you enjoy where you are, life becomes fluid and easy. If you hate where you are, its because you hate how you feel, which is a result of “DOING” what you hate. If you love how you feel, it’s a result of DOING what you love. DUH..
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The journey to heaven is all heaven.
If you cannot accept yourself, you cannot go to heaven. Or if you do, you’ll force your way in, and all you get to see is the physical manifestation, but the value of heaven is heart based.
So, you can enter the space of heaven, but it will seem like a coloring book, minus the colors. Something is missing.
When you accept yourself, sure you have to accept your emotions and what they dictate, but theres nothing scary about that, they light the way to heaven.
A man in heaven who arrives by force, arrives but doesn’t get to experience the feeling of heaven. And its all about the feeling of heaven.
The journey to heaven is all heaven…
Why would God let you in to his home if you can’t accept the passkey to enter (your self) ?
Personal power
We all go through hard challenges. There’s no revelation there. And it times of hardship, it does become rather hard to know how to depend on self. Especially when our personal sense of self, or our personal drive or sense of direction gets blown out.
It’s rather hard to simply figure out one’s way, when one’s way of sensing one’s way has been;.. removed.
Imagine, you’ve always done things a certain way, then one morning you get into a car accident, and you awake to realise that the way you do things no longer applies to you. You have to adapt, you have to understand… what your standards of procedure will be for your daily operating. How you get into ‘the zone‘.
If you cannot shine, what happens next is that there’s no point aiming for anything because… well, there’s no point of arrival and confirmation. There is no joy in the future to aspire to. Which means that, the above accident had taken away your ability to feel joyful in the future…
Well, in these moments, it’s rather easy to wake up in the morning and start wondering if there is a God. Because, you’re powerless in regard to your condition, right?
So, you pray, and you think, and you even whine a little to this all omnipotent entity, and you await an answer. Sometimes your miracles get taken care of, sometimes its just you frustrated and cursing at the walls for what life has done to you.
In these moments of weakness, it feels rather … easy… to suddenly hope for some powerful God who’ll fix you and make everything better. Here’s the kicker, you already had a Dad, and he could do what he could do. But now, you’re on your own, no one’s coming to save you. It’s between you and yourself.
And while I don’t deny that there are spiritual entities helping you to heal and so on. If you don’t do the work, do the hard things, nothing gets done. Your winnings don’t just leap into your lap. You have to build your bucket for the day it rains, otherwise you don’t catch any water…
Right now, it’s raining, but right now I’m dealing with my own version of this current crisis of meaning and direction. Finding it difficult to project, because my current personal equation makes it difficult to project with. If you lose an arm or a leg, your future will either include no leg, or it will include a prosthetic limb. If you’re projecting into a form of reality, your future will be based upon your current equation of physical, mental and emotional status.
So, when you’re going through something difficult, it’s sometimes rather difficult to project into the future, to see the brighter day, from a stand point that… yes something happened to you, and that thing can resolve itsself, but until that resolution happens, your vision of the future will be warped by your present equation.
Now, I find that, relying too heavily on an all powerful God, to make it all better and fix my current situation… sometimes disempowering, because it means I’m looking externally for God to fix my situation, when I should be looking internally for my own inner state of God. Because when we align with our inner Godlike power in the attempt of something, what happens is God or the universe usually joins you and supports you to get you to where you’re going.
But when you’re feeling pathetic and low and ailing and waiting for something to happen, God will probably do the same. It seems…
I hope I’m not jaded in this perspective, and I do reserve an open door for new perspectives. But I do however tend to see that the moments when I take leaps, those are the moments when things tend to … get better. I can sit in my chair and so on, but until I go out and do things, nothing happens, no one can happen, and no external influences can happen.
I suppose that, if we really think about it, God is everyone and everything at the same time, so if you meet the right person who sais the right thing which shifts you internally … that’s because you put yourself in the right place.
So, perhaps disconnection has its place, for healing, for reassessing, for preparing… but the disconnect prevents you from the giving of the gift of what you’ve done in your isolation to others… And that is the purpose of your gift.
Don’t aim to do things for others for their recognition
Don’t do things for others to get their recognition. Aim instead to focus on doing things because they serve a utilitarian purpose and do that excellently.
Spend your time focussing instead, on being as effective as possible, in creating and solving their pain points so that you can help as many people as possible. Once you have started your journey to produce the best solution possible.
You must spend your time focussing on implementing multiple iterations to continually improve the solution and its applied form over time through trial and error.
The point is to become the best by going deep into that Area, and then once that has been achieved, to go deeper and find areas which surround that one area, which will support and improve the core solution offer.
Responsibility
Here’s one I’ve found to be terribly painful.
There is no way for us to enter God’s kingdom, if we cannot accept responsibility to be in control for the thoughts that we are thinking.
About 12 years ago an event happened to me. The person who ‘acted’ the event onto me left me we an idea of how to describe him, a bad bad man.
I got out of that situation, and grew, and decided to write books and a blog and blablabla…
11 years later, I meet someone who triggers that exact state of emotion I had so much trouble getting over.
Today, I reach a point of culmination where – perhaps because of the full moon – I comprehend what I’ve needed to do to overcome what I’ve been fighting against over and over, vehemently for the last 5 months.
So, here goes:
My subconscious has been persecuting me with terrible terrible guilt ridden descriptions for the last 5 months. And every time it would, I would refuse and reject the idea because quite simply it has nothing to do with me. After all, I aspire to do good, be great and do what’s healthy and loving… all that, right?
And nearly every day, I’d reach a point where I’d have to go through this debilitating concept. No thanks, I don’t accept that, and never will. It has nothing to do with me!
A few days would go by, and again, as if my entire internal army had decided to conspire against me, to take siege over my sense of inner peace. I started to consider perhaps ending it. Like, why on earth would I want to go through this repeatedly… I can’t get on with work, I can’t focus on my gift, I can’t make progress. I just have to suffer and see everyone else making progress while I go through ‘muck’…
And then, today, I decided to take a different approach. Give in.
Today, I decided to just lie down with my thoughts and emotions.
It’s important to note that, when we decide to face something head on, it loses it’s power.
Anyhow…
When I reached the point where I decided to close my eyes, all I saw was the pitch black view and the discomfort of my heart feeling out of sync. (In reality it was me who was out of sync with it!)
So, I did breathing, I’ve been doing breathing lately.
And I contemplated what my heart was feeling, tried to figure out what I couldn’t feel for months ( actually 12 years I’ve been unable to feel this one thing.. and stuck in the mind…).
And then… it hit me. I sat with the discomfort, and the emotions, and decided to go along with the visions and the verbal persecutions and give in to them. So I accepted to be what my mind told me I was.
Then, in that clear instance, I was let into heaven. My heart opened up, and I realized (It seems I keep on learning this lesson…) it is only by accepting what is that I can do something about it. Even if, in this instance, it’s not actually true. My mind thinks it is, so I have to accept that my mind thinks it is, even if I know it’s not true.
When we accept what is, we can do something about it.
What’s more? When we take responsibility for ourselves, God let’s us in the kingdom. Not before, if we believe we have no power, or that we have no agency over ourselves, then guess what, we don’t get to be in heaven during our stay! God doesn’t want terrorists in heaven, so you have to leave your state of terror at the door! (We all terrorise ourselves with our beliefs, and thoughts and so on…)
When you ‘feel’ low and nothing is working out for you
When we feel low, it’s because we’ve been saturating our focus on things that make us feel like shit. Or, we’ve been focussing on how things aren’t working for us. Or, we’ve been focussing on how we never get what we want.
But the thougts we consume, we also tend to think about. If we decide to eat a chestnut, will there be a carrot or an apple in our stomach to be digested? No. Only a chestnut. So, when we place our attention on things which aren’t fully uplifting and inspiring, these ‘reference points’ become – mediocre- because we have decided for mediocre idea food…
We have to accumulate positive, unplifting, beautiful, joyful, beautiful, references which make us feel – the way we want to feel- and accumulate that way of feeling!
We can’t force ourself to do things, by pushing. We can’t ‘just execute’ it’s not all about the execution. It’s about creating the inspiration before the action. Because action comes from thought. And forced action is essentially ‘I have to force myself to do this, otherwise it won’t happen…‘. But inspired action on the other hand is ‘I’m inspired, I’m uplifted, I’m excited to do this thing, because I’ve been given God like power through my imagination...’
We have to compound our wanted ideas. And an idea is a point of inspiration. So, if we compound inspired ideas, we compound energy too. Which is why the Brilliant writer is always full of energy. Because his sails are full of the life force of ideas from consuming content and information he enjoys.
If we fill oour head up from a point of curiosity and interest and joy, and we consume content that makes us FEEL GOOD, we will ideate on the same level. Which will by extent, creates more and more references – thoughts – about that feel good to think !
Don’t do things out of force. Doing things out of force is action from a place of fear. When we are fearful about the outcome of what we’re doing, example: ‘I’m creating a 100000 €!’ but somewhere we don’t believe in our ability to get it. We will force ourself to take action, and the extent of that is: doing what we hate. Sure we might end up with that sum, but at what extent, we just fucked up our entire journey, and our energy, and now we feel like a piece of shit because we’ve just spent all that time miserably in order to ‘feel good’ when the end result comes along.
But instead, if we decide to Do things from a place of power (when we get inspiration), we get an idea, and it gives us energy. We will be inspired to take action, we will be uplifted, we will be optimistic, we will be confident. Because the action we are taking, is from a place of deep emotional confirmation, because the idea stemmed from within us.
When we start taking action – because the internet guru told me! – we miss out on a vital vital piece of data; our own. If we’re taking information from the outside, from other people, and simply being directed by the flux of data being thrown at us by influencers all over the world, we won’t be doing it from a centered place, we’ll be doing it from a place of misalignement with ourself. Because we’ll be taking action from a place of fear of listening to ourself. And we can’t get what we want in life if we spend ourselves doing what other people tell us do to. We can only get what we want, because we create the ideas of what we want first.
How would I go about doing this?
First of all, forgive myself for being so hard on myself and forcing myself to go through everything I’ve been through. Be grateful for all my body has endured in that forceful state, in that it did really well.
Secondly, I’d now let go of that disfunctional way of acting. And implement a new way. I’d spend my time searching for and accumulating amazing content ( thoughts, concepts, things, music, videos, humour, magazines, pictures, …) that make me feel good when I consume them. Spend my time consuming these things until I get an idea, then start taking action on that idea from a place of emotional certainty. Then, I’d go back to the source of my ideas to draw out more inspiration, and continue down that road until I make enough progress.
Don’t just become water my friend. Become love. Become joy, become free, become happiness, become excited, become optimistic. Let these emotions become you my friend, and the world will open up to you …
All the best,
Cherokee Goldberg
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