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When lost, the teacher will be revealed to lead you back to you.

April 2022

The importance of money was starting to weigh heavy on my conscience, I was about to enter ‘the real world’. Yet, I had no monetizable skill. Albeit being a writer, bloger, artist and blablabla, none of that would put food on the table and roof over head. So the idea of learning a new skill seemed to make sense. A skillset that could make money. – An attractive notion.

September 2022

Just starting out back to school. I’d begun studying Full Stack Development. Wonderful I thought to myself. The sense of importance and prestige of going back to school to learn a diploma! Awesome. The last time I’d been in school was in University, and that ended up with me jumping off the 8th floor and, well getting pulled through the window and whisked off to the finger painting academy. Without a diploma. So, getting to somehow learn a skill that could physically set me free was appealing.

October 2022

I could see that studying Code affected my mindset, and the way I thought. Although it was too soon to tell how this would affect my mindset, it was also rather clear that instead of fluid ideation, I’d start to produce structural ideation based on logic or algorythmic sequences. All very Ouhlala. Until one graps that, logic is like sand in a cog when it comes to verbal ideation. Especially if you consume a lot of it, like a duck being prepared for FoieGras.

April 2023

Dad passed away 2 days after my Birthday. The amount of logic prevented me from being emotional and actually helped me to cope with it all. By this time, I’m reading less and I can clearly witness my internal ideation Ebb. Although the logic created energy, it wasn’t my personal soul based logic. Societal logic is different than Personal soul based logic. Society will eat you up and make you conform. Personal will fuel you to the brim with uniqueness. The more Logic you consume, the more you’ll conform. The more you abide by the logic of your heart, the more people will conform to you and your uniqueness.

July 2023

Meet a woman 17 years older than me, for some reason we seem to be on the same level of understanding. Perhaps she’s mentally behind, behaps I’ve been through too much? After a month of romantic get-away, her motives come to the forefront. She’s needing to escape her monetary routine and wanted to rely on me. ‘I am a student.’ I tell her, to her dismay. After consuming the last of my emotional reserves, she broke it off and my life ended up spinning out of control like a car going down hill without breaks. – I can’t find my center-point.

October 2023

I’ve just passed my Full Stack Developper diploma! And I’ve awarded myself a jolly little burnout. I still can’t find my center. I’m starting to feel edgy about How to make money. Because, I don’t want to work, I want my assets to work for me. I’m a wealthy man, not a rich slut. My work works for me, I don’t work for it. My mind is seeking for new ways to monetize my past achievements.

January 2024

Absolute trauma. I’ve hit rock bottom, my head seems to have split into two. I’m not dealing with Bipolarity, although I can see that my emotions are going one way, and my logical mind in another. I can be one way or ther other, not both. Fate is trying to tell me that, I must function from a united point of intention. I’m set on building the UHNW Consultant. Back and forth I sway between trying to be either fully emotion, or psychopathically logical. I can’t find a point of concession. Shut up and work, get it done, get the money then rest.

September 2024

I’m burning out, I can’t focus, my sense of addiction has become enflammed and hyperbolicaly disproportioned. ‘I am become lust’. – Jeeez, I thought I’d overcome that shit…

Here we go again, lets put the pain to bed. But I still need to finish my website and get the offers to market so I can make money.

November 2024

Meet a PsychoPump (soul guide). Tells me that I need to take a break and resource. Cut off from screen, and start to focus on self. I agree. Then don’t do it, then agree to myself, then don’t do it.

Then a ressource comes out of the woodwork, which confirms the importance of the psychopump on putting me back on my path and aligning me with my inner sense of guidance. The one I’d stepped away from in September 2022 when seeking money instead of soul. – Time to take time out. Breathe… I’ve been through A LOT….

December 2024

Stop. This bipolaric state is coming from aiming to do things for money. I’ve just written a book about this specific topic, and yet I’m not following my own words. Hypocrit! Okay, it’s time to let go. Stop seeking money, start seeking fulfilment.

Aiming to do what is good for me, while trusting the universe and the process of life? Okay, done deal. Finding those areas, those inner ledges which made sense before learning Code. The areas of ‘homeliness’ which made sense. The inner directions which felt like absolute peace. – Time to align myself again. Again? Again..

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The journey to heaven is all heaven.

If you cannot accept yourself, you cannot go to heaven. Or if you do, you’ll force your way in, and all you get to see is the physical manifestation, but the value of heaven is heart based.

So, you can enter the space of heaven, but it will seem like a coloring book, minus the colors. Something is missing.

When you accept yourself, sure you have to accept your emotions and what they dictate, but theres nothing scary about that, they light the way to heaven.

A man in heaven who arrives by force, arrives but doesn’t get to experience the feeling of heaven. And its all about the feeling of heaven.

The journey to heaven is all heaven…

Why would God let you in to his home if you can’t accept the passkey to enter (your self) ?

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Personal power

We all go through hard challenges. There’s no revelation there. And it times of hardship, it does become rather hard to know how to depend on self. Especially when our personal sense of self, or our personal drive or sense of direction gets blown out.

It’s rather hard to simply figure out one’s way, when one’s way of sensing one’s way has been;.. removed.

Imagine, you’ve always done things a certain way, then one morning you get into a car accident, and you awake to realise that the way you do things no longer applies to you. You have to adapt, you have to understand… what your standards of procedure will be for your daily operating. How you get into ‘the zone‘.

If you cannot shine, what happens next is that there’s no point aiming for anything because… well, there’s no point of arrival and confirmation. There is no joy in the future to aspire to. Which means that, the above accident had taken away your ability to feel joyful in the future…

Well, in these moments, it’s rather easy to wake up in the morning and start wondering if there is a God. Because, you’re powerless in regard to your condition, right?

So, you pray, and you think, and you even whine a little to this all omnipotent entity, and you await an answer. Sometimes your miracles get taken care of, sometimes its just you frustrated and cursing at the walls for what life has done to you.

In these moments of weakness, it feels rather … easy… to suddenly hope for some powerful God who’ll fix you and make everything better. Here’s the kicker, you already had a Dad, and he could do what he could do. But now, you’re on your own, no one’s coming to save you. It’s between you and yourself.

And while I don’t deny that there are spiritual entities helping you to heal and so on. If you don’t do the work, do the hard things, nothing gets done. Your winnings don’t just leap into your lap. You have to build your bucket for the day it rains, otherwise you don’t catch any water…

Right now, it’s raining, but right now I’m dealing with my own version of this current crisis of meaning and direction. Finding it difficult to project, because my current personal equation makes it difficult to project with. If you lose an arm or a leg, your future will either include no leg, or it will include a prosthetic limb. If you’re projecting into a form of reality, your future will be based upon your current equation of physical, mental and emotional status.

So, when you’re going through something difficult, it’s sometimes rather difficult to project into the future, to see the brighter day, from a stand point that… yes something happened to you, and that thing can resolve itsself, but until that resolution happens, your vision of the future will be warped by your present equation.

Now, I find that, relying too heavily on an all powerful God, to make it all better and fix my current situation… sometimes disempowering, because it means I’m looking externally for God to fix my situation, when I should be looking internally for my own inner state of God. Because when we align with our inner Godlike power in the attempt of something, what happens is God or the universe usually joins you and supports you to get you to where you’re going.

But when you’re feeling pathetic and low and ailing and waiting for something to happen, God will probably do the same. It seems…

I hope I’m not jaded in this perspective, and I do reserve an open door for new perspectives. But I do however tend to see that the moments when I take leaps, those are the moments when things tend to … get better. I can sit in my chair and so on, but until I go out and do things, nothing happens, no one can happen, and no external influences can happen.

I suppose that, if we really think about it, God is everyone and everything at the same time, so if you meet the right person who sais the right thing which shifts you internally … that’s because you put yourself in the right place.

So, perhaps disconnection has its place, for healing, for reassessing, for preparing… but the disconnect prevents you from the giving of the gift of what you’ve done in your isolation to others… And that is the purpose of your gift.

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You are of Heaven or you are of Hell; the choice is yours.

We craft who we are, and how we experience life. So when we reach moments where we reach a cross roads, we sometimes believe that we must choose hell over heaven, beacuse ‘it makes sense’ to our immediate circumstance.

But then the compounded effect of that compounded circumstance, creates outcomes we don’t want. And bit by bit, the quality of our life gets worse, and we tense up, and begin to live in fear.

Here’s the thing though, our most sacred mission is to apply our focus to getting unstuck where we feel stuck. The original condition or worship, is a ‘ state or condition of worth ‘. When you embrace worship, then, your aim is to embrace your real worth : the divine perfection that resides within you. With a path, we are no longer afraid or worried.

So, know that nothing is written in stone, and change is possible. Even if its intense, unwithering, and recurring; change is possible. If we believe so.

If you seek you shall find the answers It will be alright. You have to function from a place of optimism.

We have two choices, to pick heaven or to pick hell. And this is often reflected in our moments of frustration. People either say “For Christ’s sake” or “For Fuck’s sake”. The language we use is defining of the choices and intentions we use.

So, you might wonder, what is the purpose of Hell?

The purpose of Hell is to purify ourselves for what seems like an “eternity” in limbo. The point is to transmute our struggles into lessons to teach to people. Think about the purpose of fire under a pan full of water. The hell is the fire, the transmutation is the boiling of the water, and the struggles is the cold water, and the the end product of that transmutation is hot water for tea, for a bath, for boiling an egg, or whatever…

It seems like an eternity in “numb” limbo beacuse that is the consequence of not wanting to feel fully or listen to our higher self.

When our body says “this is boring”, or “I’m tired” and we push through boundaries, it seems hell is the price we pay for the disrespecting of our natural healthy preservation limitations.

And this is why some people get rich, but then cannot be happy. They didn’t listen to their natural higher wisdom and pushed through despite their knowing… out of fear.

Hell is the compounding effect of what doesn’t fulfil us from a place of fear or lack. It’s chosing Matter over mind. Things over Feelings.

The purpose of Heaven though is rather different.

The path to heave, is all heaven. Because, for one, there is no pushing or forcing, action is taken from a place of harmony and peace; knowing full well, that the outcome that we are working towards will come to be.

Each step comes from a place of fulfilment and higher knowing, and this ensures continual enjoyment during our journey.

“The quieter you become, the more you’re able to hear.” – Kali Wallpaper.

Taking action from a grounded place of peace, beacuse we enjoy what we do, creates a form of healthy sustainability, which we can easily endure over time – it isn’t much of an effort.

So, if we compound the heavely path over time, we will begin to nurture, then generate renewal of ourselves while being guided by heavenly presense and protected for our Good effort.

As Oprah said, and requoted from the bible, we serve from a place of fullness. We fill ourselves up so that we can serve others with the overflow. We cannot serve from an empty cup. Your self comes first.

Only what fulfils us in a peaceful way can sustain us over the long run. If you try filling yourself up with detrimental reference, you will self-destruct at some point, because the alchmey of wrong references cannot be accumulated without creating nefarious “chemical reactions”. Think of heaven as compounds which work well, while hell as compounds with potential to create explosive reactions like oxygen and fuel in a motor. If we don’t have a balance between states of peace and states of ‘reactions’ we are dominated by a reactionary life.

So, it’s imporant to compound (in the sense of accumulation), joyful substances with consciousness. Which is the complete opposite of the Hustle culture, which is to Force through everything even though its empty!

We cannot serve from an empty cup.

Abundance or Lack?

Doing things from a place of fear or lack, will always create a mirror effect of that sentiment or intention somewhere in our lives / environment.

Doing things from a place of trust and faith, will always create a mirror effect of that sentiment or intention somewhere in our lives.

“For to everyone who has will more be given, and he will have an abundance. But from the one who has not, even what he has will be taken away.” – Mathew 25:29.

So making decisions and commmitiing to “doing things” because they make money is a certain way to enter a hell of your own.

Doing things because you like them, and you enjoy them, will create and purify you in the right way. Because the things you do provide a healthy sense of self reference (our bag of references with which we view the world).

And its with our compounded quality of self references that we percieve ourselves and our lives and those around us.

The choice is to pick the feeling, the emotion we want to grow, the enjoyment, the excitement.

NOT to pick because of the things we want, because chosing the things over the quailty of emotion equates to matter over mind, which is Hell over Heaven. Hell is picking things for what we can get. And we only want something from a place of Lack.

Heaven is picking what gives us energy in a worthy way. Heaven is the compounding of what we enjoy over time.

” We’re not out for the pleasure of the achievement, but the fulfilment of the journey.” – Cherokee Goldberg

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Don’t aim to do things for others for their recognition

Don’t do things for others to get their recognition. Aim instead to focus on doing things because they serve a utilitarian purpose and do that excellently.

Spend your time focussing instead, on being as effective as possible, in creating and solving their pain points so that you can help as many people as possible. Once you have started your journey to produce the best solution possible.

You must spend your time focussing on implementing multiple iterations to continually improve the solution and its applied form over time through trial and error.

The point is to become the best by going deep into that Area, and then once that has been achieved, to go deeper and find areas which surround that one area, which will support and improve the core solution offer.

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Rock bottom will teach you lessons that mountain tops never can.

Don’t let anyone remove your challenges. Your challenges and struggles are valuable, as they provide lessons and understandings for you.

Why do I say this?

Your lessons and understandings are monetizable. And if someone removes your itch, they also prevent problem solving. Which in turn prevents you from creating a solution that you can then sell to others who have that pain point.

So, when someone sells you a fast track to the summit of a mountain, don’t take it. Because once you’re at the top, thats it. While you’re struggling up, is the moment you grow. If someone helicopters you out of your struggle, you don’t get to evolve through the journey and the result is that we end up with a bunch of spoilt brats at the top of the mountain, spitting nonesense and teaching all the wrong ways under the pretext that they have ‘succeeded financially’ so they are successful.

A lot of people with money are not successful, in fact they failed massively, because they didn’t meet their purpose on the way to the summit and settled for riches and for some reason, a recurring, loud and angry voice…

Don’t forget your soul in the process.

A business’s soul purpose is to expand your own ability to serve others and grow as you advance in service. If your sole purpose is to get money, you fail, because you disregard people and treat them like shit in order to get what you want.

(Notice I used the word Soul and Sole. One is universal service, the other is self-serving.)

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The importance of your personal rythme.

“Don’t quit. Never give up trying to build the world you can see, even if others can’t see it. Listen to your drum and your drum only. It’s the one that makes the sweetest sound.” —Simon Sinek

The reason we get into burnout is two fold. Our future is taken away from us, or turned transformed into something limiting. Or we push so much we don’t recover. Eitherway, we end up in burnout. While I’m not going to talk about the future here. I will talk about an energetically sustainable path to riches.

While the whole world fights for scraps of attention or money. I can’t help but ponder.

We’ve essentially removed ourselves from the phyiscal ratrace to put ourselves in a never ending mental ratrace, which is worse because at least when we were working 9-5’s we could disconnect at the end of the day or on the weekend. Now, we’re plugged in 24/7 365.

We’re no longer in a ratrace, we’re in a consensual human pods, just like in the matrix. We consent to spending all our time in front of our screens as we’ve been sold on the idea that working to get financial freedom is okay so long as we give up our mental space and every second of our time to empower social media platforms with our creative genius.

Now, don’t get me wrong, these platforms are great. And if we have the right systems in place, to remove ourselves from the equation so we can experience freedom, these platforms are amazing. BUT, and I say this with emphasis, if we don’t have our own specific systems in place, we’re stepping away from jumping through hoops for a boss, and volontarily jumping through hoops to have financial freedom while empowering social media platforms, no code websites, and so on.

Whats the solution then? Well it’s pretty much in the title isn’t it.. Being self governed by our higher self. Pursuing our northstar, not our goals, but pursuing ‘the thing’ / ‘the state’ in which we shine. You know the one where we become hyper attractive. When we become so magnetic with our presence that the whole world turns to see who’s walking by.

No, I mean, that state of pure internal bliss which comes from following what makes sense to us and empowers us.

A while back, I talked about how our imposter syndrome came from doing what we actually didn’t want to do, but were doing because we were selling ourselves for the money. Well, here’s the thing, as much as money is all nice and good, the great state we pursue isn’t money. It isn’t even what money can offer. It’s purely an outcome we can achieve from anywhere in the world, even in a damp cave if we put in enough effort…

And I believe the recipe, for reaching that higher state of being, the high we get from flow, the feeling of alignment we get from deep work, the high we get from ideation… I believe the framework, is Going at our own speed, abiding to the beat of our own drum, Doing what fulfils us while we advance towards our horizon, and having a clear positive horizon to go towards. I believe that if we have The fuel (what fulfills us), we have the vehicle (what we pour our fuel into. A canvas, Social media, art, music, code…), the speed to maintain quality output without deterioration (going at our own speed/ following our own rythme), and a clear positive horizon to go towards (the desired destination from the accumulation/compounding of our output) then, without a shadow of a doubt, we will have Bliss of journey, bliss of being, bliss of gift to others, and blissful destination.

Fuel x Vehicle x Speed x Destination. = Successful outcome

Our burnout and stress, comes from jumping through hoops to please others, or to abide to market conditions, or to do things for clients without having any personal boundaries, or simply being a slave to money. But the solution, I don’t think, lies in externalities dictating what works and what doesn’t. I believe we have to optain that inner centeredness, our inner compass before striving for anything. Because, its our inner compass which will direct us in the direction of feels best to compound.

For now,
All the best,
Cherokee Goldberg

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Value x Time > Quick money.

“Don’t sacrifice an empire for a pot of Gold”.

You can’t just knock out the equivalent of Rocky if you don’t compound ideation before.

Everyone knocks spending time reading, pondering, procrastinating, thinking and everyone will tell you to just take action.

Action has its time and its place, but if you are to create a business, you want to spend more time on the business than in the business. You want to know what needs to be done, and then outsource it. In terms of content and value creation, you want to compound information.

This is suuuuper important. Yes, perhaps people are making money, and like the tortoise and the hare, they are sprinting to the finish line, but your ideation compounding, even if seemingly slow at first, is what will set you appart in your ability to create valuable content later on. I know this, because this is exactly what I did.. I took the non-conventional route of compounding value over time, because the more value I could imbibe, the better my ideation would become, which would mean that my market value would be superior when I did decide to share my output.

Everyone seems to value fast money, but no one seems to value the time it takes to mature a fine wine, or valuable content. Without the challenges, the stresses, the struggles, the frustrations, your content would be worth nothing. But because you go through all of lifes buffet of experiences, and you struggle, and you grow in value over time, even if you’re not financially recompensed, your VALUE grows and overtime you become more valuable. Every word you utter has more power. Every example you share is more piercing. Every post you create has a standard.

And you’ll find that the more time you spend compounding your knowledge and information, against every single influencer on social media’s recommendation, the worth of your output will grow exponentially. This means that, you will reach a point where your knowledge will be sought out because it is singular, because it is rare, because it is unique and in high demand – because there is only one of you.

All the best,

Cherokee Goldberg

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Finding your purpose

I’m a hard worker, and in addition to that, I know I’m smart. But no amount of power or speed will get me to where I’m going if I have no clue where I need to go, and this bugs me.

Because, no matter how much I search, no matter what I strive for, the ‘AHA!’ moment of finding my purpose never arises. No matter how much I strive for it, no matter what I do, I never seem to get the ‘OMG, this is the only thing I want to do for the rest of my life’ type of understanding. In fact, the only time I had that was when I was delusional and addicted and that was in proportion to the pain I was experiencing which was so unbareable and difficult to undo, that finding something to counter balance what I was going through seemed like the only solution I had. It wasn’t. I indulged… Ahh, the decadence of abandoning one’s self to something that knocks our socks off!

But, here’s the issue with that… It’s a downhill road, and no matter how fast we go, we will end up at the bottom, and that means depleated, sick, or dead. And that’s not an outcome anyone wants.

So, what’s the alternative, you ask?

Going upwards. Going upwards is great, except for one thing, when you’re struggling with replacing false beliefs, its rather difficult to go in any direction than the one those canon balls tell you do, down. Because of the weight.

Going upwards is great, its virtuous, its enjoyable, and what’s more, we gain strength and we remove layers of outdated stuff the further we go.

So, how do we find purpose?

This seems to be THE question.

I’ve found that one’s purpose, is at a crossroads between Who we need to serve with our gifts, and the standards we aspire to while using our gifts to serve.

Our purpose, is essentially the dent we want to leave in the world. Or better yet, reparing the dent others have left.

I like to think about purpose as a horizon we go towards but never reach. Like a north star, we go towards it, as a guiding light, but never do we reach it. It’s a form of direction, which keeps us moving, which keeps us growing, which keeps us going in ‘the right direction’.

If our vision is our What, our purpose is our Why.

So, your purpose is essentially the why that is deep within us, which is connected to the star we’re chasing. Like a magnet with only two polarities, we humans have infinite polarities, and our purposes in life stem from that inner why that gets us moving.

So, when we define our gift (what is right here that we can do really really well and fulfills us), and when we know why we have that gift and to who we can give it to make their life better, we discover our lifes purpose. And our lifes purpose can evolve, just as our skills and gifts can be developped over time, we can evolve from serving one type of tribe, to another over time. But, we’re not fixed like tree’s, we can evolve. And of course, when we’ve pursued a sunset for a while, at some point, we realise the solution we’ve found for our problem, we can automate it and then actually change direction towards a new destination.

All the best,

Cherokee Goldberg

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Responsibility

Here’s one I’ve found to be terribly painful.

There is no way for us to enter God’s kingdom, if we cannot accept responsibility to be in control for the thoughts that we are thinking.

About 12 years ago an event happened to me. The person who ‘acted’ the event onto me left me we an idea of how to describe him, a bad bad man.

I got out of that situation, and grew, and decided to write books and a blog and blablabla…

11 years later, I meet someone who triggers that exact state of emotion I had so much trouble getting over.

Today, I reach a point of culmination where – perhaps because of the full moon – I comprehend what I’ve needed to do to overcome what I’ve been fighting against over and over, vehemently for the last 5 months.

So, here goes:

My subconscious has been persecuting me with terrible terrible guilt ridden descriptions for the last 5 months. And every time it would, I would refuse and reject the idea because quite simply it has nothing to do with me. After all, I aspire to do good, be great and do what’s healthy and loving… all that, right?

And nearly every day, I’d reach a point where I’d have to go through this debilitating concept. No thanks, I don’t accept that, and never will. It has nothing to do with me!

A few days would go by, and again, as if my entire internal army had decided to conspire against me, to take siege over my sense of inner peace. I started to consider perhaps ending it. Like, why on earth would I want to go through this repeatedly… I can’t get on with work, I can’t focus on my gift, I can’t make progress. I just have to suffer and see everyone else making progress while I go through ‘muck’…

And then, today, I decided to take a different approach. Give in.

Today, I decided to just lie down with my thoughts and emotions.

It’s important to note that, when we decide to face something head on, it loses it’s power.

Anyhow…

When I reached the point where I decided to close my eyes, all I saw was the pitch black view and the discomfort of my heart feeling out of sync. (In reality it was me who was out of sync with it!)

So, I did breathing, I’ve been doing breathing lately.

And I contemplated what my heart was feeling, tried to figure out what I couldn’t feel for months ( actually 12 years I’ve been unable to feel this one thing.. and stuck in the mind…).

And then… it hit me. I sat with the discomfort, and the emotions, and decided to go along with the visions and the verbal persecutions and give in to them. So I accepted to be what my mind told me I was.

Then, in that clear instance, I was let into heaven. My heart opened up, and I realized (It seems I keep on learning this lesson…) it is only by accepting what is that I can do something about it. Even if, in this instance, it’s not actually true. My mind thinks it is, so I have to accept that my mind thinks it is, even if I know it’s not true.

When we accept what is, we can do something about it.

What’s more? When we take responsibility for ourselves, God let’s us in the kingdom. Not before, if we believe we have no power, or that we have no agency over ourselves, then guess what, we don’t get to be in heaven during our stay! God doesn’t want terrorists in heaven, so you have to leave your state of terror at the door! (We all terrorise ourselves with our beliefs, and thoughts and so on…)