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Women can’t write

…and neither can men.

Taken to its absolute extreme, no one knows how to write. They spend their time simply regurgitating other peoples ideas. At the very least most people have a few original ideas, it still doesn’t mean they can write.

Is this true? As we enter a world of increasingly AI written work, the original thinker who comes up with novel and worthy ideas will become more and more important. Personal authenticity and character will shine through peoples work. And the astute and disciplined wordsmith will be asked for.

Often, I find a great book, hope to read it, and then when the time comes to dig in, to my dismay, I find its been written by some bot using ai.

I often say that chatGPT is like NZT, the smarter you are the better the results.

Here’s the thing, people focus on automation, and leave it at that. They think that its smart to leave work up to a machine to get money and go off. And in a way it is. But WORK, is not what makes you money. Work is what evolves your soul and turns it on. Work shouldn’t be related to money. I think service should be related to money. But Work, should be related to the advancement of our soul and personal state, so that we can share this with other people.

And so long as we have the disdain for work, because we relate it to things we dislike doing, we will want to outsource it to machines or some person trying to get by and put 3 beans on the table on the other side of the world.

Mainly we’ve been taught that working is bad, or our experience of Work has been bad. As a result of growing up in a brain-dead world with people who don’t think, but simply repeated what had been enforced upon them by angry nuns with rulers whacking peoples fingers until they learned the importance of writing properly.

No wonder our poor parents were so deluded. They grew up in a society full of authoritarian morons. Thankfully, as time goes by, these biased ways are watered down.

(-Funny, right now I can see my disdain for authority proportional to my inner trauma to my higher power, so I can see my writing is aiming or projecting and finding ways to express its discontent towards people in positions of authority who did wrong. The truth is, I have a trauma and am discontent with my inner authority and it mirrors in the way I think and express myself in examples… hmm… food for thought. –)

I believe that, we’re living in a world where many wrong people have had a lot of power. Because money tends to navigate towards positions of extremity, in good or bad, never neutral (due to its lack of momentum), so people, and society at large tends to become absolutely out of whack in relation to the power dynamics of energy. (More energy attracts more momentum, a larger magnet attracts more metal…)

The dumber you are, the more you’ll attract, its absolutely wild -because there are more dumb people than there are smart ones… Think of it in terms of metal and magnet.

If like attracts like, then the lighter pieces of metal will be attracted to someone with higher levels of energy but lower levels of intellect. The high thinkers will be attracted to someone who has allocated a lot of energy to high frequency thinking. So, if we look at the grand scale of the world, we’ll observe by default the larger number of people flocking towards the dumbest possible entities – ‘catch me outside‘, ‘Cardi B’, etc. When scum is valued, the higher number will support it simply proportional to the frequency it emits.

Which is why we live in a depraved society where women are valued on Onlyfans and sex is rampant everywhere. And thinkers are fewer and get less money.

You simply don’t get news articles, spewing hype to the masses about how the lone writter is making millions because he’s writing something valuable in english…

And the value of our ability to think and write, depends on our ability to control how we feel, where we focus our attention, how we live our lives. If controlling ourselves is difficult because the energetic momentum of an entire lifetime makes the sheer scaling of our mountain impossible or super hard, guess whats going to happen? People are going to use the law of attraction and slide all the way down into the ‘masses’ where everyone else is living. But only dead fish go with the flow of what is being dictated by their emotions.

My entire life I’ve rebuted this. I followed my emotions, I followed what felt right. And fair enough, it was nice, but also a bit of a rollercoaster if I didn’t know. Though, the sheer internal shift I’ve experienced as of late, is that I’ve augmented the logical side within me, so its no longer a question of letting life happen and going with the flow, but being clear about the intent with which we aspire to achieve things.

If we didn’t develop our ability to think in the last years, right now is not the time to learn, or at the least it will be a struggle. Because the emotional tendencies seem to have shifted. I don’t say this for myself – even if that is true on a personal level – once we become conscious of something internally, it’s rather difficult to not see it externally… So, this grants me the ability to see parallels in the world around.

The passion we experience for what is true, what is right, what is correct, is what we should aspire to. Despite all indication of how we feel personally. – I absolutely hate what I just wrote, because it applies to me to. It indicates to me that I have to go through an asbolute hell. And if I don’t apply this to myself, I’ll see myself as a hypocrit –

This same notion of truth is also a standard I hold for myself. If I am to respect myself as a writer, to simply spew ai generated rubble into the world around me would be the equivalent of saving up all my used plastic bottles and then walking to the ocean and just dumping it with no care at all for anything. The fish be damned.

I don’t agree with that. The automated life, or the easy life is … once again up for grabs, and everything about me rebutes it. My body, of course wants to have the ease of wrong habits. My mind and consciousness though, would rather go through absolute hell if it means reaching being in the heavenly free state once more.

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You will rise.

Because this it’s your destiny. You will rise, because this is your purpose in life. You are to be the example, you are to show the way.

You will rise, because its precisely when the odds are stacked against you and the last seconds are ticking on the clock that the victory is sweetest.

You will rise, because your rise is Gods rise, and your win is inevitable, because your win is everyone’s win. So if you don’t do it for you, do it for the team.

It’s when you’re fearful, when you’re shaking, when you feel defeated, when you feel down, when you feel like the whole world is against you, when you feel like every possible bad thing under Gods blue sky is preventing you from the win… That you take your will power and pronounce one more time ‘ I WILL WIN!’

So long as there is hope, so long as there is belief, You will rise.

Yes, this is personal, yes I do have a few tears while writing this, and if this means anything to you, so should you.

All the best,
Cherokee

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Coffee – The worst productive high.

The thing is we’ve become accustomed in society, to drink coffee. It’s one of those things which no one really questions. Though its a trap, and it has profound implications on your well-being.

We get accustomed to the high coffee produces, because it stresses the nervous system. And so, we get into the habit of associating coffee to a ‘pick me up’ to ensure ability to produce. Mainly this is a fundamental error. When you’re tired, you need to rest or recover. Using cafein to force results is the best way to get strained results. And the most beneficial way of obtaining incredible energy is to gradually grow our energy to the point where we have the surplus of energy readily available for when we need it. Not by creating an artificial stressor in order to produce an outcome because we need to jump through a hoop to do something we dislike in order to achieve a result.

In order to be soul driven, we must stay away from coffee, because it creates a forceful mechanism for our energy. It produces forced output over a period of time, rather than from our emotional and spiritual highs through hard work, inspiration, curiosity, creativty, and so on. When we experience a high from accumulated quality input (such as reading…) the output of that is High natural value.

When we experience a high from a forced ouptut, the output is strained, our body is strained, our nervous system is strained. It’s not a natural way of producing energy. So when you drink coffee, on a habitual basis, you are creating the habit of

1) Needing to depend on external stimulus.

2) Percieving the world froma strained dependant perception.

3) Shaping your mindset from the pattern of using forced stimulus to force create a state in order to produce output.

When in actuliaty, you want natural, unstrained, creative flow, in proportion to a lifestyle that creates daily joy. And the highs you get, come from natural enjoyment. And your lifestyle, relationships, health, mindset, work, become based on what you enjoy doing, rather than focussed on the forced productive results you are Squeezing out of yourself with the coffee stimulus.

Here’s a trick I discovered a long while ago. When I was younger, I used to play soccer. Fine enough, everyone else did. Though, for some reason I played soccer and I was good at it, and I had explosive energy, I had explosive output and here’s what I did and didn’t do:

What I didn’ t do:

  • I did NOT drink coffee.
  • I did NOT abuse my sex life
  • I did NOT reside in anger
  • I didn’t listen to other people

What I did do:

  • I drank a ton of water every day
  • I would listen to my energetic high’s and lows
  • I would wait until my body had recovered to exercise
  • I found fun in my exercise
  • I sprinted a lot
  • I would eat raw Carrots daily
  • I wasn’t controlled by my emotions
  • I was mentally in control by listening to what ‘Felt right’
  • I listened to myself

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Are you fear based or love based?

Here’s the thing. When you decide to go into life, it doesn’t matter what you do, so long as you do it from a place of fulfilment and process. I’ve been harking on this for years.. In 2022, I wrote a series of newsletters and articles that I didn’t publish, but had multiple realisations, only to then get reminded of the extent of what I had written and the importance of sharing it. So here goes.

When you go into life, and decide to go forward towards something, we have essentially two choices. The first, is to reject our present moment, and so we reject the gift within it. The possibility to take action from a place of fulfilment.. I know, I’ve said this multiple times, even in my book… And on the other side… taking action from a place of fulfilment and gift. When we act from a place of fulfilment and gift, what happens is, it fills us up, it enlightens us, it fills our energetic circuits, and shifts us from a place of fear and lack to a place of abundance and possibility. By making this micro shift, we start to fill up our energetic reserves and we start to feel optimistic. This is due to the activity. I’ll explain.

When we strive for a future from a place of lack, we actually project to a future from a place of lack. Our process drains us, so we can only see a future where we’ll be drained somehow. The future cannot be bright. On the otherside, if our process fills us up, we can’t help but be optimistic about the future we’re going towards, because the more we go towards a future from this point of process ( it fills us up ) the better and brighter it will seem to us.

Essentially, we project the state we have from our daily process. If our present state, and ability to accept how we feel and the effects of the process on us, are positive, aligned with our gift, we align with a dream type future which we translate as ‘purpose’.

If our present state – right here and right now – is negative, because we’re not grateful for what we have, we reject our natural gifts, and our process depletes us.. in other words we decide to go to work to get money so that we can be valued or buy things or go places that will value us so that we can be loved… well the inevitable outcome will be that of a hellish future we want to get away from. And the outcome of that will be procrastination, as a result of you not wanting to go forward to that future. You’ll literally undermine your efforts at every turn, no matter how disciplined you are. And even if you don’t undermine yourself and manage to create output… the universe around you, events will happen, which will knock you back into alignment with the track you’re supposed to be on.

Solution to your dream life? Start by feeling well, where you are, by doing things you love, where you are. If you enjoy where you are, life becomes fluid and easy. If you hate where you are, its because you hate how you feel, which is a result of “DOING” what you hate. If you love how you feel, it’s a result of DOING what you love. DUH..

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When lost, the teacher will be revealed to lead you back to you.

April 2022

The importance of money was starting to weigh heavy on my conscience, I was about to enter ‘the real world’. Yet, I had no monetizable skill. Albeit being a writer, bloger, artist and blablabla, none of that would put food on the table and roof over head. So the idea of learning a new skill seemed to make sense. A skillset that could make money. – An attractive notion.

September 2022

Just starting out back to school. I’d begun studying Full Stack Development. Wonderful I thought to myself. The sense of importance and prestige of going back to school to learn a diploma! Awesome. The last time I’d been in school was in University, and that ended up with me jumping off the 8th floor and, well getting pulled through the window and whisked off to the finger painting academy. Without a diploma. So, getting to somehow learn a skill that could physically set me free was appealing.

October 2022

I could see that studying Code affected my mindset, and the way I thought. Although it was too soon to tell how this would affect my mindset, it was also rather clear that instead of fluid ideation, I’d start to produce structural ideation based on logic or algorythmic sequences. All very Ouhlala. Until one graps that, logic is like sand in a cog when it comes to verbal ideation. Especially if you consume a lot of it, like a duck being prepared for FoieGras.

April 2023

Dad passed away 2 days after my Birthday. The amount of logic prevented me from being emotional and actually helped me to cope with it all. By this time, I’m reading less and I can clearly witness my internal ideation Ebb. Although the logic created energy, it wasn’t my personal soul based logic. Societal logic is different than Personal soul based logic. Society will eat you up and make you conform. Personal will fuel you to the brim with uniqueness. The more Logic you consume, the more you’ll conform. The more you abide by the logic of your heart, the more people will conform to you and your uniqueness.

July 2023

Meet a woman 17 years older than me, for some reason we seem to be on the same level of understanding. Perhaps she’s mentally behind, behaps I’ve been through too much? After a month of romantic get-away, her motives come to the forefront. She’s needing to escape her monetary routine and wanted to rely on me. ‘I am a student.’ I tell her, to her dismay. After consuming the last of my emotional reserves, she broke it off and my life ended up spinning out of control like a car going down hill without breaks. – I can’t find my center-point.

October 2023

I’ve just passed my Full Stack Developper diploma! And I’ve awarded myself a jolly little burnout. I still can’t find my center. I’m starting to feel edgy about How to make money. Because, I don’t want to work, I want my assets to work for me. I’m a wealthy man, not a rich slut. My work works for me, I don’t work for it. My mind is seeking for new ways to monetize my past achievements.

January 2024

Absolute trauma. I’ve hit rock bottom, my head seems to have split into two. I’m not dealing with Bipolarity, although I can see that my emotions are going one way, and my logical mind in another. I can be one way or ther other, not both. Fate is trying to tell me that, I must function from a united point of intention. I’m set on building the UHNW Consultant. Back and forth I sway between trying to be either fully emotion, or psychopathically logical. I can’t find a point of concession. Shut up and work, get it done, get the money then rest.

September 2024

I’m burning out, I can’t focus, my sense of addiction has become enflammed and hyperbolicaly disproportioned. ‘I am become lust’. – Jeeez, I thought I’d overcome that shit…

Here we go again, lets put the pain to bed. But I still need to finish my website and get the offers to market so I can make money.

November 2024

Meet a PsychoPump (soul guide). Tells me that I need to take a break and resource. Cut off from screen, and start to focus on self. I agree. Then don’t do it, then agree to myself, then don’t do it.

Then a ressource comes out of the woodwork, which confirms the importance of the psychopump on putting me back on my path and aligning me with my inner sense of guidance. The one I’d stepped away from in September 2022 when seeking money instead of soul. – Time to take time out. Breathe… I’ve been through A LOT….

December 2024

Stop. This bipolaric state is coming from aiming to do things for money. I’ve just written a book about this specific topic, and yet I’m not following my own words. Hypocrit! Okay, it’s time to let go. Stop seeking money, start seeking fulfilment.

Aiming to do what is good for me, while trusting the universe and the process of life? Okay, done deal. Finding those areas, those inner ledges which made sense before learning Code. The areas of ‘homeliness’ which made sense. The inner directions which felt like absolute peace. – Time to align myself again. Again? Again..

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You need to clean up your browser tabs

Your tabs are messy and you need to clean up. So, before 2025 comes around, get your act together and clean it up. Thank me later.

If you’re anything like me, you have 50 tabs open at any given time trying to get everything done…. And as time goes on, your tabs become more and more disorganized, because you need to finish everything

Well, Think of your browser tabs as something you need to have a structure for.

I organize mine by Year, then Month, then Day, then subject proportional to activity I’m focussing on at that moment, so I can go back to what I was doing that day.

Anyway, I just thought I’d give a quick value jab t’all you browser terrorists before the holidays.

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The journey to heaven is all heaven.

If you cannot accept yourself, you cannot go to heaven. Or if you do, you’ll force your way in, and all you get to see is the physical manifestation, but the value of heaven is heart based.

So, you can enter the space of heaven, but it will seem like a coloring book, minus the colors. Something is missing.

When you accept yourself, sure you have to accept your emotions and what they dictate, but theres nothing scary about that, they light the way to heaven.

A man in heaven who arrives by force, arrives but doesn’t get to experience the feeling of heaven. And its all about the feeling of heaven.

The journey to heaven is all heaven…

Why would God let you in to his home if you can’t accept the passkey to enter (your self) ?

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I am the soul, the one within.

I am not my body, my body is me.

I ‘m not my mind, my mind is mine.

I am the soul, the one within.

And my purpose, is to believe in my body, so my body can BE.

Be lieve. From Be and lief ( lief in German is to run.)

To run towards ‘be-ing’. To be a human-being its self.

Imagine that. A Human, being its self.

Human was first recorded in the mid 13th century, and owes its existence to the Middle French humain “of or belonging to man.” That word, in turn, comes from the Latin humanus, thought to be a hybrid relative of homo, meaning “man,” and humus, meaning “earth.”

So, to be a human, is to be a man on earth.

This means, that our soul, is fully incarnated within our body and our body, aligned with our soul.

If that’s not the case, we’ve got work to do.

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These Words will shift your reality.


How the root of words will change your reality.

To succeed is to shine from the heart. But to shine from the heart is to act from what the heart is full of and enjoys from a place of Gift or fulfilment. So, if we spend the majority of our time in our gift, we will become a master in that activity, because we enjoy it. And, we will radiate the joy we compound from doing that activity.

To be Godlike is to shine, which is to reflect Gods greatness back to other people.
And Gods greatness is Good.

So, from my own understanding, any activity around LUST is instant gratification. And instant gratification leads to the opposite of enjoyment in any activity except itself. It withdraws energy which empowers the journey towards ‘being Godlike’ before others.

So, to engage in lust is sinful, because the lust will withdraw you from what is worthy. And what is worthy, is to be in the heart. And so, if what we do is good, we will shine goodness from the heart and inspire people upwards (nonlustful activities), and if we fill our heart up with lustful activities, we will reflect that back to others, and fortify the distraction or detraction from being in the heart for others. In other words, we will be working to disempower others from being in the heart, with God, doing Gods work, in bringing heaven to earth. Which is to sin, or to miss the mark. The mark being to bring the kingdom of heaven to earth.

So how did I get to the above conclusion?
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I decided to seek for the etymology of the root word of ‘pink’, which actually comes from ‘the frilled edge of the flowers’ or german ‘to peck’. Which inevitably lead me to the word blue. Which comes from the high german blao meaning ‘shimmering, lustrous’.
Which is to shine in such a way that the light seems to shake slightly and quickly.

I then searched for other colors, until… I had the idea to start seeking for more important words.

God, for instance, comes from ghut. Which means ‘That which is invoked‘. or that which is worshiped as divine. Or Goodness who is who is worshipped So, I searched for comprehensions of divine, which is ‘celestial’ or ‘shining’.

So, naturally I sought out what God originally meant. from the 6th centuary Christian Codex, gudan, which means ‘to call’ or ‘to invoke’.

Okay, so, what does it mean to invoke?

If you invoke a law, you state that you are taking a particular action because that law allows or tells you to.

And what does Invoke mean? It means ‘to call’, or to call forth.

So, to call comes from the old Norse ‘to summon’. Which means to think, to invite, to prepare.


summon (v.)

c. 1200, somnen, “call, send for, ask the presence of,” especially “call, cite, or notify by authority to be at a certain place at a certain time” (late 13c.), from Anglo French sumunre and directly from Old French somonre, variant of sumundre, somondre “summon.” This is from Vulgar Latin *summundre “to call, cite,” from Latin summonere “hint to, remind or advise privately,” from assimilated form of sub “under” (see sub-) + monere “to admonish, warn, advise” (see monitory).

So, to summon, is to hint

Calling and Speech both have the ability to speak. Which is to ‘make a sound’

Sound also means, in good condition, not damaged or diseased.

And when we go further down the rabbit hole, sund, becomes swimming / Gap / Narrow access.

The word Noise, comes from the word Nausea.

Nausea, comes from Naus and nauseatum which is Naus for Ship, and Nauseatum to make or feel sick.

In this instance I’d express that our body is our ship. And the Nausea is our internal pain/sickness.

Ship comes from the word ‘shape’ or Having the shape of.

And, so, to call forth, is to evoke, provoke, or occur, to arouse. Or in other words, to make manifest.  

To make manifest comes from the Latin manifestus, meaning “detected in the act, evident, or visible.” . So, in other words, to make thoughts visible.

Luxury, comes from luxus, or Excess. Luxury originally came from the word Lust, which is associated with adultery.

Other words associated to lust are ‘desire, appetite, inclination, appetite.’

In the bible Lust is associated to a sinful longing; the inward sin which leads to the falling away from God ( Romans 1:21 ). “Lust, the origin of sin, has its place in the heart, not of necessity, but because it is the centre of all moral forces and impulses and of spiritual activity.

And the word Sin, comes from the greek Synn, which is “to miss the mark,” “to fail in one’s purpose“.

And so, if we fail in achieving the mark by focussing on lust, or luxury, or desire or excess.

What is the mark we’re failing to reach?

What is the purpose we’re failing to reach?

So answer this, I’ll back track to a previous post.

The reason we fail, is because we quit.

But the reason we quit, is because it isnt fulfilling.

We’re unfulfilled, when we’re not using our gift.

Our gift is connected to the fulfilment of our heart.

So when we’re not in the heart, we’re not worthy of success.

Because the condition of worth, is literally heartfelt.

Your success, is a posture of heart.

Our most sacred mission is to apply our focus to getting unstuck where we feel stuck. The original condition or worship, is a ‘ state or condition of worth ‘ […]. When you embrace worship, then, your aim is to embrace your real worth : the divine perfection that resides within you. With a path, we are no longer afraid or worried.

In other words, to feel worthy, one has to be aligned with the heart. And how do you change the heart?

You change how you feel about things.

Now, if you’ve ever read psychocybernetics, you’ll understand that the heart, is… a blueprint of daily associations and agreements we make in proportion to how we feel. And we can change our blueprint, or the way we feel.

So, the way we feel is dictated by what we focus on on a daily basis. Up, until we reach the moment where we have an automation of focus and affinity for what we look at.

Okay, so lets recap.. Because thats a lot of information.

My Conclusion from all of the above.

What is the mark we’re failing to reach? What is the purpose we’re failing to reach?

To succeed is to shine from the heart. But to shine from the heart is to act from what the heart is full of and enjoys from a place of Gift or fulfilment. So, if we spend the majority of our time in our gift, we will become a master in that activity, because we enjoy it. And, we will radiate the joy we compound from doing that activity.

To be Godlike is to shine, which is to reflect Gods greatness back to other people. And Gods greatness is Good.

So, from my own understanding, any activity around LUST is instant gratification. And instant gratification leads to the opposite of enjoyment in any activity except itself. It withdraws energy which empowers the journey towards ‘being Godlike’ before others.

So, to engage in lust is sinful, because the lust will withdraw you from what is worthy. And what is worthy, is to be in the heart. And so, if what we do is good, we will shine goodness from the heart and inspire people upwards (nonlustful activities), and if we fill our heart up with lustful activities, we will reflect that back to others, and fortify the distraction or detraction from being in the heart for others. In other words, we will working to disempower others from being in the heart, with God, doing Gods work, in bringing heaven to earth.

The Mark we’re failing to reach is the ‘FULFILMENT’ of our hearts, fully with Gift base goodness, rather than Lack based activities. We focus too much on activities which aren’t our gift, which creates a degree of pain. That pain creates a duality, which makes us seek out pleasure in luxury [ Note that I said luxury, not lust. Because luxury is also Excess, which we want as a result of FEELING like we don’t have enough, and that is the downside of being detached from our gift (which is fulfilling)].

Our purpose, is to fill our hearts up with a compounding, an accumulation of Gift based emotions, which are Joyful, which are happiness, which are pure, which are … Love based. These emotions create a pure heart, and pure intentions.

The detractor of purpose, is anything which ‘IS NOT OUR GIFT’, because that which is not our gift will deplete us rather than fulfil us, thus creating internal states of pain and frustration which need a counter-balance … in the zone of Lust and Luxury.

If you arrive in heaven by force, you’ll have force remove heaven from you. In other words, if your base state isn’t a heart full of heaven, anything you achieve will be coerced from you with pleasure.

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Personal power

We all go through hard challenges. There’s no revelation there. And it times of hardship, it does become rather hard to know how to depend on self. Especially when our personal sense of self, or our personal drive or sense of direction gets blown out.

It’s rather hard to simply figure out one’s way, when one’s way of sensing one’s way has been;.. removed.

Imagine, you’ve always done things a certain way, then one morning you get into a car accident, and you awake to realise that the way you do things no longer applies to you. You have to adapt, you have to understand… what your standards of procedure will be for your daily operating. How you get into ‘the zone‘.

If you cannot shine, what happens next is that there’s no point aiming for anything because… well, there’s no point of arrival and confirmation. There is no joy in the future to aspire to. Which means that, the above accident had taken away your ability to feel joyful in the future…

Well, in these moments, it’s rather easy to wake up in the morning and start wondering if there is a God. Because, you’re powerless in regard to your condition, right?

So, you pray, and you think, and you even whine a little to this all omnipotent entity, and you await an answer. Sometimes your miracles get taken care of, sometimes its just you frustrated and cursing at the walls for what life has done to you.

In these moments of weakness, it feels rather … easy… to suddenly hope for some powerful God who’ll fix you and make everything better. Here’s the kicker, you already had a Dad, and he could do what he could do. But now, you’re on your own, no one’s coming to save you. It’s between you and yourself.

And while I don’t deny that there are spiritual entities helping you to heal and so on. If you don’t do the work, do the hard things, nothing gets done. Your winnings don’t just leap into your lap. You have to build your bucket for the day it rains, otherwise you don’t catch any water…

Right now, it’s raining, but right now I’m dealing with my own version of this current crisis of meaning and direction. Finding it difficult to project, because my current personal equation makes it difficult to project with. If you lose an arm or a leg, your future will either include no leg, or it will include a prosthetic limb. If you’re projecting into a form of reality, your future will be based upon your current equation of physical, mental and emotional status.

So, when you’re going through something difficult, it’s sometimes rather difficult to project into the future, to see the brighter day, from a stand point that… yes something happened to you, and that thing can resolve itsself, but until that resolution happens, your vision of the future will be warped by your present equation.

Now, I find that, relying too heavily on an all powerful God, to make it all better and fix my current situation… sometimes disempowering, because it means I’m looking externally for God to fix my situation, when I should be looking internally for my own inner state of God. Because when we align with our inner Godlike power in the attempt of something, what happens is God or the universe usually joins you and supports you to get you to where you’re going.

But when you’re feeling pathetic and low and ailing and waiting for something to happen, God will probably do the same. It seems…

I hope I’m not jaded in this perspective, and I do reserve an open door for new perspectives. But I do however tend to see that the moments when I take leaps, those are the moments when things tend to … get better. I can sit in my chair and so on, but until I go out and do things, nothing happens, no one can happen, and no external influences can happen.

I suppose that, if we really think about it, God is everyone and everything at the same time, so if you meet the right person who sais the right thing which shifts you internally … that’s because you put yourself in the right place.

So, perhaps disconnection has its place, for healing, for reassessing, for preparing… but the disconnect prevents you from the giving of the gift of what you’ve done in your isolation to others… And that is the purpose of your gift.