Month: Apr 2025

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If you’re cut off from your emotions, but need to reach your goal while feeling like you’re in absolute darkness. Refer to the DCI Framework.

While the devil will try to trick you, and what to do if you’re stuck in a form of prison cell, even if its within you.

If the Devil can convince you that you can’t have what you want in the future, he will tempt you into giving up everything in the near present.

At the start of 2024, I experienced a trauma, and have been stuck within that bottle, unable to pop that cork. Going round in circles, unable to get to the other side to enjoy what life has to offer. – It’s taken my ability to feel anything, my ability to exercise, my ability to feel emotions, my inner impulse and guidance system, it’s taken my ability to have a clear mind, and it’s taken my ability to feel certain about the future. It’s taken my energy, and has made me doubt, given me confusion, and made me feel cut off from the world. 2 cm away from success and the devil puts you in hell. FFS… Right?

But, this isn’t my first rodeo. This isn’t my first trauma, and luckily I developed tools beforehand. So, I am in the habit of figuring things out, and being in tricky situations.

In a past life I’d have called myself an escape artist. Although, for this trick, I’m not certain how to escape tbh… I digress..

The devil tries to convince you, that your future is no longer attainable. You either give into it, or you give up, thinking that your dreams are no longer possible for you. This is illusion. You will rise again tomorrow morning, and you will, at some point, overcome this thing. It’s a matter of time and understanding.

I’ve created a framework for if you’re uncomfortable and dealing with automatic trauma/addiction/seeking for external ‘signs’ in order to confirm you’re on the right path.

You see, in my life, currently, I can’t feel, I have no sense of feeling or emotion, no impulse, no higher thinking, and my body seems to be my enemy. I have no form of ‘internal’ narrative, and no mental clarity to guide myself with.

But I know a few things.

  1. My gift requires input, which is fuel. And if, even if I don’t have access to what is happening within, I can sense that my body is creating energy and there is a little enthusiasm, as I go through the motions.
  2. I know that if I go towards the direction I’m striving for, my energy perks up.
  3. I know that if I look at certain things, just looking will deplete my energy.
  4. And I know what direction I need to be aiming for.
  5. And if I decide to go towards my risk, everything feels possible.

I currently have the obstacle of having zero guidance, zero reference, no impulse, no help, and I feel like I’m in the dark, alone, cut off. It’s scary, but… when we are in the dark, we must remind ourselves that, we are the light, and we are to guide others.

The Direction / Confirmation / Information framework.

I don’t have access to the infinite wisdom of my body, but I do have cues, and by observing, I can sense that I get uncomfortable and immediately start to search for ‘desirable’ things instead of being able to process the emotion, so I have to put all of this aside.

As soon as I start to get a bit ‘nervy’, I have to refer to this framework, to keep me on track.

Am I in need of direction? If this is the case, then I should refer to my plan.

If I am in need of confirmation, I’m seeking for something to tell me that I am ok, and I’m going in the right direction.

If I don’t know something, or how to solve it, instead of having access to that – like I normally do – , I need to refer to the tools that can help me with what it is that I don’t know.

And of course, a reminder, of why I am doing what I am doing.

The paradise, the state of care, feeling, taking care of mama, having my energy back again.

So, having an understanding of my obstacle, gives me a question of where I need to put my focus, and if I can do that, I can chose what is most important. (Bare in mind, that I seem to have had an absolute emotional reset, my EQ is stupid right now). So, having a rational map to help me navigate what it is that I’m feeling is helpful.

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Jumping into the Abyss

Risk is the boundary holding us within the current reality we exist in. It is the limitation between our entire world perspective, and living within the reality we are actually supposed to shift into.

When we reach that gate, that area where we’re supposed to ‘get over/into’ becomes an internal blockage, a moment in time where all our fears /struggles become apparent. A moment where nothing is clear, or where we’ve become numb. So we freeze.

The thing is, beyond that moment of numbness, is pretty much everything that you could want. Its a limitation one holds themselves back with, to prevent them from living fully.

Kind of like a box we put ourselves in, to keep us ‘safe’. But from what? From our fears.

But as soon as you take the leap, there is a moment, in which your frequency stops and ascends to the higher level of where you’re going.

Life becomes suddenly rather interesting, because you’re experiencing it from the vantage point of that higher frequency. No longer are you witnessing life from the point of the lower perspective. And so, you witness a whole bunch of people who are at that level.

But that requires you to let go of the old; of everything you used to be. So that you can fully incorporate the new reality, which better matches who you are.

Evil & Perspective.

I see a lot of people who hate those who have money, those who are successful, those who are doing well. And Boy o’ Boy to I see a lot of people projecting and blurting out all of their hatred about others.

I just saw a post of 6 women who went to space with Blue Origin. The amount of jealousy, backlash, frustration, anger, that people are venting is absolutely out of this world!

And so, it got me thinking.

You see, the higher you go within yourself, the more intense demons you must face. Each time you reach a new height, you realize that there’s another demon to slay. And then, you realize that the demons you’re undoing, are perspectives, fears, and identifications associated to emotions. If you’re unconscious, you project these things onto the people who ‘mirror’ these internal conflicts back to you. In other words, people who are living in the public spotlight, celebrities, stars, entrepreneurs …

Why does this happen?

Essentially, you look at those people who, are simply purely going about their days, and they have something that a lot of “internally dead” people don’t have. There’s a form of listening to the soul, a form of hearing God’s call outs, a higher nature to them.

The problem though, is that functioning at such a high frequency means that you attract at a high frequency also. This means that you’re going to attract people who fit that internal dynamic you’re giving off.